July 31, 2006

cross my heart-alcolic

     I woke up at about 2pm.I walked into the living room rubbing my eyes.As I looked up every one was staring at me."um what's going on?" every one was silent."well umm im going to get a beer..." I started to walk into the kitchen but got cut off."Vam we need to talk..."Kayla said with no emotion showing."um ok...about what?"  "you drinking problem.It becoming worse.You are even drinking more then Ville.It need to stop befor something happens,we know there is something wrong going on." my eyes went narrow."WHAT?!I don't have a drinking problem,nothings going on!IM FINE!" I yelled and stormed out the door.

      At first I didn't know were to go.Still I saw Zamoras.I quickly ran across the street in front of cars making them hit their brakes so fast you could here the rubber off the tiers skid across the pavement. .I could swore I herd people cussing at me.I quickly ran to the bar"give me anything strong" I said quickly and started banging softly on the counter.He handed me a drink and looked at me puzzled.I gulped it down then held it out for him to give me another.As I drank thoughts rushed through my mind.I could not fix my mind on one thing,until I remember what Kayla said...'I don't have a drinking problem...do I?'I thought to myself.'no,you don't they don't understand,they dont know what I have been through.?' I lied to myself it seamed to be working too.I drank my thoughts away,drank my problems away.

     When they cut me off,I walked to the store and got a case of beer,I drank it in the park.I was slammed.I pass a group off guys.Forgetting I was married and about my only love,I began to flirt with them,and play with them.I brushed up against one of them,when I heard"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!"it was Bam and Ville.Ville grabbed my arm.I pushed it off and yelled in there ears"GO AWAY!I DON'T NEED YOU!! LEAVE ME ALONE!"Bam grabbed me and threw me in the car.I struggled to get out then they pushed me back in.I forgot I could unlock the doors.I banged and screamed yelled hit punched kicked all the way home.When we got home I was pissed,I yelled at every one.I stumbled around the house trying to get to the cellar to get some wine.When Kayla fallowed me down and tried to keep me form drinking.I struggled for a bottle pushing her to the ground.She pushed me back and grabbed the bottle and threw it at the wall braking it.She grabbed another and threw it"VAM! I can't do this I don't want you to do this to yourself!!"  "IM NOT DOING ANY THING!YOU DON"T KNOW WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME BE AT PEACE!"I grabbed a battle and tried to open it.She pushed me down."VAM!Don't do this you don't see what you are doing!You know what this stuff can do to you!You are going to kill your self,I don't want you to die,I don't want anything to happen to you!I care about you Vam we all do."I paused,suddenly it came clearer...I began to relies what I was doing.I drooped the bottle.I felt tears rushing down my face.I could not stop crying,I think it all got to me,it all caught up to me.At my father funeral I held my tears back.Ever since my father died I have held anger back held tears back.I tried to teach my self not to cry.But I guess when I was drunk it all came out non stop.Kayla helped me up the stairs.I saw Mige and Linde sitting next to Bam.Dico and Dunn.I felt ashamed,I tried to hide my face from every one.

       We talked for hours,it seamed like every one was crying or trying not too,except me.I don't know why I should be the only one crying but I wasn't.I hate to cry but some times its hard to hold it.When Ville said...he wants me to go to a rehab center.I didn't want to,but I knew its what he wanted.I didn't want to give up drinking,I just wanted to cut back on it.This all was happening to fast...I was really a hard drinker,I was really an alcoholic!I really had problems.What happened to that perfect little girl,that never did any thing wrong,played with dolls had tea parties with her girlfriends.Then played army,and super hero with her guy friends...what append to daddies lil girl!...She grew up,got into drugs and alchole...quite drugs after years of abuse then got married and became and alcholic!!! NO!!! I didn't want to be that...im not going to live to see my own child!I want to live and explore the world!!!Not if im going this!I need to stop...or at least cut back.


Posted on 07/31/2006 4:56 PM Comments (5)

July 28, 2006

cross my heart-drunk(the returne)

 I woke up in the middle of the night to my heavy breathing and damp hot face.I turned to my side looking out our bay window,with the moon staining back at me.I got up and slipped my red silk robe on and walked into the kitchen stepping on the cold hard tile.I reached into the fridge to get a nice cold beer,when my mother and father rushed through my mind.I leaned agents the counter as I thought of them.My eyes suddenly ran to the calender and I saw that it was the day the adopted me.I went into the living room and streched out on our soft black velvet couch.I laid there for a second then herd Ville voice"hey Vam you ok?" I eminently sprang up."oh yeah,I'm fine just having trouble sleeping"  "oh...well..I'm gonna go back to bed,how about you?" he said as he yawned like a lion."hm..I'll try I guess."I said and walked in with him.He instantly fell back asleep,but I...laid there again.I struggled to find a comfortable place.I flopted on my back then my side and to my stomic and all.I staired strate up at the ceeling.Thinking of my parents,and then my birth parents,my brother jake.The past memeries of my home befor I was adopted...how they treated me and Jake.Just thinking about it made me saddened but full of rage.Hours went by and I still could not sleep.So I decided to get up and take a shower.I let the hot water run across my body like a water fall.I standed leting run across me for what seamed like hours.I got out and dried my body and instently raped my slef around my robe.I didn't bother with make up or cantacts.I just wore my glasses,I brushed my hair out and put it up out of the way.I went down staires into the celler and opend a bottle of red wine,and sat out on our up staired porch.The sun was just about to rise,it was beautiful.Rays of the sun shot through the cloudes like angels falling from the hevans.I grew into a trance of the beautiy,my eyes wide,a smile across my face.I haven't seen the sun rise for so long,usualy i'm sleeping of a hang over or I went to bed at 4 am and woke up at 3 pm.I was hit into reality from the sound of the fromt door flying open.


 " oh hey guys." I said walking in.It was Kayla and Bam with Dunn fallowing behind them."hey love" Kayla said and gave me a hug."hey Dunn hows it going?"I said and gave him a peck on the cheek."well..its going,at least."he said lighting a ciggy."you guys are here early." Ville said walking in and rubbing his eyes."oh yeah,well the dogs went crazy at the paper boy and woke us up,so we figured to go here even if you wern't up"  "well thats nice to know were the head house."  "haha yeah and Aishya and Jussi  want some "ALONE TIME" Bam said evening making the quote marks."oohh I see!" Dunn walked into the bathroom and Ville suddenly turned to me"Vam hunny how bout you out a little more clothes on..." he said and he kiss my cheeke."why?" "well um Dunn just broke up with Katie and he is probley looking for more then friendship with girls right now....and well...you know" he said making his eye grow wide."oohh yeah...I'll be right back"I said and darted into the bedroom.I threw on the closest clothes to me.I hurried to the frdge to get another beer,as I tiped it to my mouth Ville stoped me."its to early,you have had to much this morning."and he grabbed the bottle from my hand.My eyes narrowed and I grabbed it back and gulped it down."babe..."  "you are telling me to stop drinking!? Who is the king of alchole here!? You drink way more then me EVEN BAM!! Mayba even more then me and him put together! and you are telling me to stop,its to early...that i've had enough!!"I yelled out...why was he telling ME I should be telling him and when I do he never listens...he doesn't have any buissness to tell me to stop..its to early...I had to much.I stormed into the living room.Every ones eyes fixed on me and the bottle of beer in my hand.Ville walked in slowly and sat next to Bam."Vam...don't you think you have had enough this morining?"Kayla said with Villes same idea."I don't need this!I don't need you telling me what to do! telling me when I have had enough!I don't meed any of yu right now,espeshly today I DON"T NEED THIS BULL SHIT I HAVE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH OF IT!!" I screamed and ran out the door.I drove to the nearest bar.I drank and I drank"hey there little lady I need to cut you off there...you have had to much.Its not even noone yet."the bar tender said and gave me the bill.I was to tiered and drunk to even bother getting mad.I took out a 50 dallor bill and gave it to him"kee...keep the change Mr."I slured.I stumbled down the streat forgeting I had a car good thing to should neveDRINK  and DRIVE.I triped over a rock and passes out on the curb.Next thing I knew was I woke up in a police car.


 "you got one call!" I called Villes cell"Ville baby,come get me out of jell...it horable here they make you eat poop!"I was still drunk."JELL!"I herd Kayla yell in the background."ok we..we will be right there hold on." he hanged up the phone but I didn;t relise it "hello ? HELLOOOO?!hmmm bastard."I said and hanged the phone up well I tried to I missed the recerver.Finaly Ville and Kalya came and picked me up."Vam!WHat the hell do you think you're doing!" Ville said as he drove me back home."uumm....I'm breathing!Thats what I think."  "uuggghhh!"Ville grouned.He carried me back to bed and i slept the rest of the day.


Posted on 07/28/2006 1:19 PM Comments (9)

July 23, 2006

we are the damned-damilya returnes

 He froze.He didn't talk at all,all he did was hang up the phone then sat down,didn't even say anything."what's wrong."Kayla said puzzled with a fake expression on her face.Ville shot back into reality,and looked up slowly."some one broke in to my lair." every ones mouth droped and you could see there dazling white fangs,with there eyes wide and full of shock."we better go then."Bam said grabbing Kaylas arm."yeah we better get down there and see what happened." Vam said holding her hand out to Ville.He grabbed it and she pulled him up.They ran quickly to Bams car.They got there in about 5 min.Ville flew through the door.His eyes grew wide at the sight of his home,it was trashed.Books every ware chairs and tables tipped over.Pages ripped out of his note books,peaces of broken glass on the cold hard ground.Ville steped in ,with the sound of glass crushing under his shoes.He looked around then looked up at Bam.His eyes were stunned at the sight.Ville looked back down then he quickly sprung his head back up.He looked around then ran into his bedroom.He shot open drawers,and threw his pillows up running his eyes across the room.His eyes scarce,"oh no.oh no.SHIT!!"he said as he banged his head and his fists on the soft bed."what happed."Bam said as he walked in.Ville looked up,"they took it,they took it all.They took my notes,my songs,my poems,my addresses,my numbers,my journals,my money.It all was in that, ALL of it!!."he said full of rage and anger...and still the sound of worry."it all was in that black box.All of it and now its gone...did you notice they didn't take any thing else...but that"  Bams face went narrow."so..that means." "that means they have your number your address...they have Vams and Kaylas,Hexina, Lolinds, and Victorias "Ville said and got up from his knees." as Vam and Kayla came in."Ville,im..so ..sorry."Vam said with pity."don't be you did nothing....and I do think I know who it is.""I know..but I still can be sorry...I don't want things like this to happen to people I...love."she smiled as she said love.Ville looked up.He looked down and blushed.Bam looked at Kayla and raised his eyes brows.


 Lolind and Hexina came in.When Hexina saw Vam and Ville together her eyes fell and she looked away every ware but in there derction."man Ville im so sorry..I don't know what I can do." Lolind said and sat next to Vam eye balling here and she scooted into Ville more feeling uncomfortable and unsettle with Lolind looking at her like that.Ville put his arm around her.He looked at Lolind and cleared his voice,"um...Lolind can you kinda back off." "oh um...sorry."he said and took one more look at Vam as he got up and sat next to Hexina."so what are we going to do about this?"Victoria said breaking silence,"well we got to figure out who it is first."Hexina replied."Well I kinda think we all know who it probley is."Ville said raising an eye brow."why would she do it though...do you think she is planning on doing something to us?" Lolind said with a scared shake in his voice."well she did take my addresses."Ville said as he swayed his head in Lolind direction."well what should we do about it then?"Kayla said with her face crunched."maybe we should go out of down?" Lolind suggested."hm...but what if she goes through our houses."Hexina said looking around. " well we should be together so nothing happens to any one.Like every one need at least one person with them at all times."Ville said strongly."I don't want any thing to happen to any one."his voice softened."well were are we all going to stay?" Kayla said looking at every one with her shoulders shrugged."what about...well who has the most space." every one looked at Bam."what..."


 "man why does every one have to be at my place?"he wined to Kayla."Bam,you got the biggest place,and probley the safest since you have other all those locked and chaines and a big gate!"  "...fine but im not buying the beer..or blood" he said shaking his head."why..?"Vam said looking up."you people drink so much we have to get another pack ever hour." "so...Ill help...here i have a dollar buy the good stuff." "ooh yeah a dollar ppsshh that really helps!"he said throwing his arms up with the dollar in his hand.Then he stuffed it into his pocket.They got to his place and spread out in his house."BAM!! Wheres your vodka and fresh blood!?"Vam yelled as she raid through his fridge.He walked over and pushed her aside then quickly grabbed a bottle of vodka and a black bottle of blood and handed it to her with a blank face,"oh thank you love."she said with a big grin on her face."hey were out of beer...im going to get some more." Vam said reaching in the empty budwizer box."ok be careful."Kayla said as Vam went out the door.she drove off when Ville remembered."shit she isn't suppose to go alone."he got up and called her cell phone.It wrung once and he heard the tune of her ringtone play on the table."eh,shell be ok what are the chances." he said and shrugged it off.An half an hours whent by and she wasn't back,soon and hour then 2."guys Ism worried about Vam she has been gone awhile..."Kayla said with a scared worry look in here eyes."yeah me too.Should we go look for her?"Victoria said worriedly too."yeah we-" Lolind started but then Vams phone began to wring.Ville jumped up and grabbed it."hello!?"he yelled in hopes it was Vam on the other line."hello hehe."Damilya hissed.Villes eyes narrowed and his eyes began to fill with rage."what the fuck have you done with Vam!?"He yelled with rage as he herd Vam screame that was full of pain and hurt."oh don't worry about you little girl friend here she is safe with me.Just trying to keep Rathe off of her is the problem."she said as she giggled."leave her alone she did nothing don't bring her into this!"  "oh she is in it now haha,you know what I'm going to do with her...the same thing I did with you but this time I'll actually get to do it with out any one stopping me!!"said laughed like a witch then hanged up.Every one was on there feet.Villes eyes were full of fear and hate."we got to go NOW!"

 

 

sorry if i the spelling is bad...i cant remeber if i did spell check or not

well hope you like it

luv all

vam -brooke


Posted on 07/23/2006 1:18 PM Comments (1)

July 11, 2006

inter view with former key boreder zolton/juska

Finnish Rocker Invades Canada!”  

Interview Conducted By Karen McBride and Kimi Fraser.

Article Written & Transcribed by: Kimi Fraser  

Juska "Zoltan Pluto" Salminen, is one of the most memorable former-band members to date. He is well known for his charisma, his energy, personality and his trademarked "dancing queen moves" from the "Right Here In My Arms" video. (This by the way, turns out was a totally impulsive.) 

It’s been almost 6 years since the fans have seen Juska in HIM. Fans who are familiar with the album, Razorblade Romance, have been wondering what he has been doing since his days with the band.

We, at HIM-Canada.com were fortunate enough to catch up with Juska during his vacation to Canada.

So, here we are after 2 weeks of Juska's Canadian invasion vacation we find the founder of HIM-Canada (Karen McBride aka Kindred Spirit), the street team leader (Kimi Fraser aka Sweet Pandemonium) and Juska in a quiet suburb off of Toronto. It's 4pm on April 17th 2006, and Juska is relaxing with a few beers and  is enjoying his cigarette, on the last day of his vacation. 

 

Kindred Spirit (Karen): So Juska, tell us about the first band you ever played in.

Juska: The Swampies. I used to sing in the band. It was my first experience being in a band. My first song I sang was "Digging the Grave" by Faith No More; which is my all time favorite band.

KS: How did you end up a member of HIM?

J: Sorry, guys it's a long story. Umm I used to be a techno bloke, but I got really into HIM. I was a huge HIM fan. I met the former drummer, Pätkä (Juhana) and by that I met Ville. And I think mostly with my social skills, I think I got in and it was like a Cinderella story.

KS: Okay. What performance with HIM is your favorite? 

J: What one performance?

KS: Yeah.

J: Uhh.There are two. Tavastia, is the one thing everybody in Finland wants to go to if they are a small band. And the other one is "Provinci Rock." Uh....insane rocking, and to be on the main stage on that was unbelievable. And of course all the other gigs around the world.

 KS: Okay. Which venue do you prefer to play at, a small smoky club or a large festival like you just described?

J: Very small.

Kimi: Care to elaborate?

J: Small smoky one, because you can't see the people if you're the main act (in a large venue). But when you're in a small smoky club you can see the people and you can see the faces. They enjoy it that sort of thing...to be close to the people.

KS: Which other bands and/or projects have you been in since HIM?

J: Since HIM or before? Or.. 

KS: Either or.

J: Okay, after HIM I went to play in the band called "Verenpisara" which means "blood drop." And um, then I used to play in To/Die/For and uh what else?  That's about it. Now I'm making my own band.

Kimi: Care to elaborate?

KS: Yes, you care to elaborate on that? (Smirks) No? (Laughs)

J : No (Laughs)

KS: What bands are influencing you today as opposed to bands that influenced you back a few years ago?

J : Uh like a couple of years ago, I used to be a gothic boy.  (Jokingly) Gothic girl.

Kimi: (Singing in the fashion of Poison girl) Goth boy!

J: For being in HIM, Ville mostly composed almost everything.  So I just rehearsed them.  But influences like Faith No More is fun for me but nowadays I will try to do a massive attack of normal. Like mellow....I don't know the correct word, like flowing-thing like not so metal and not so gothic. I left the band because I wasn't really a professional keyboarder. I was much more like a performer. Basically, I left the band because I got exhausted. Like burnout. It took a long time to get over it, but nowadays; after 4 years, I can be a fan again. I hope all the best for the guys. Conquer the world! I miss you guys!

KS: Boxers or Briefs?

Kimi: (Giggles)

J: What?

Kimi: (Laughs)

KS: (Smiling) you like to wear boxers or briefs?

J: What are briefs?

KS: Underwear!

J: Yeah but I know "boxers”....   (Pulls down pants to check.) Boxers

 KS: In one word describe Canada.

J: Unbelievable!

KS: What is your favorite Canadian beer?

J: Molson Canadian.

KS: What was the most fun experience during your vacation here?

J : Uh...to meet new friends, that I hope will hope it will last forever. Friendships.

KS: Yeah but what did you do that was the most fun thing? That you will really remember?

J: NHL game.

KS: A hockey game.

KS: What's your best favorite NHL team?

J: It used to be Philadelphia, but now I am a Toronto maple leafs fan.

KS: That a boy!

KS: What do you think of Canadian woman?

J: Uhhhh (Looks at Karen and Kimi)

(Kimi seductively opens a bit of her shirt to joking tease Juska. Juska laughs and looks like he's turning red.

J: Everybody has been so nice. Uhhh I'm like... at the moment I'm like a non-sexual person, so I don't look at woman that way. But they are pretty. All of them are pretty. (Saying reassuringly). Uh.. I like woman. (Everyone laughs) Pretty and nice.

KS: How tall are you?

J: In centimeters, um 188cm (6'2")

KS: How's my driving?

J: Fast!

Kimi: We're just continuing our interview with Juska Salminen. Whooo! Juska!

KS: How many nipples do you have?

J: Actually 8. (Everyone laughs) 3 on my back, 2 normal ones, and uh…one under my testicles and.... (KS laughs even harder.) ...one on my toe.  And one is still under my armpit but it goes away occasionally.  

(Everyone laughs)

KS: Is it true you eat your own earwax? (Saying it while trying not to laugh while asking the question.)

Kimi: (Shocked at what Karen said) what kind of questions are these? I mean this is...how are they going to take these seriously? When they go on the website, they're going to be looking at this, and they're going to be like "I can't believe you..." (Kimi gets interrupted by Juska saving her sanity.)

J: Sometimes. I accidentally ate the wax from my ear and it tasted horrible.  But I don't eat wax. In Finland, people used to eat wax from their ears to survive, but not me, because I'm the King of Finland! (Laughs)

 Kimi: (Laughs) Okay.... On a more serious note. (Laughs again from the shock of before.) Umm Okay, so out of everybody you were in with HIM, what were their personalities like? You know, from I guess a fans point of view? If the fans want to get to know the band members?

J: The band member's personalities?

Kimi: Yeah.

KS: Real personalities. Off-screen

J: Uhh Gas is like the kindest person I have ever knew. And uh... Ville is the main guy. He's like a boss but he's really nice. But He can be tough as well because he got all the pressure on him and uh Mige is like uh is like a Mage-(hippie)-kind-of-thing. He's a really easygoing guy. And Linde isn't shy. Which mostly people think, but he's just silent. He doesn't want to speak nonsense. (Laughs)

KS: What are the rest of them like?

J: And uh…I don't know much about Burton because I only met him twice. And the old drummer was actually the guy that got me into the band so he was a pretty easygoing guy and a good drummer, but he had a child and had to stop doing that thing, because when you're in a rock band it's like 24/7 all the time.

Kimi: What was Seppo like?

J: Seppo is like...a really nice guy. (Laughs) He used to tease me a lot but.... (Laughs) anyway, he is so professional. He is the best manager in Finland or in Europe. I don't know but he is just doing a great job and he's a really nice guy.

KS: All right, there has been large serge of Finnish talent invading the American music market lately. Is this a new export or has it always existed or are we now getting to hear more of it due to the internet/media?

J: Well uh.... Swedes were always in the music, which came on board. They did better. And I think mainly because of the success with HIM; with "Join Me" in Germany, and Apocalyptica's success, with all the other bands that decided to come out. It's like spreading all over.  I'm still keep thinking, "why?" I don't know.  People seem to be really into Finnish music and in Finland as well, as a country. And they want to travel there.

KS: Is there anyone special in your life, right now, Juska? (Saying it with a smirk on her face.)

J: (Long pause) Uh yeah.... (Looks at Kimi) Kimi is special for me. (Kimi turns red and hides her face, and giggles) And uh, Karen as well. and all the other guys I met here. I'm single (laughs) but it doesn't matter at all. There's always something special in most people, but the most important to me is family. And the most important, is my niece; my brother's daughter.

KS: What are you taking back home with you that you got out of this vacation to Canada?

J : Memories, which will last forever and friendships that will hopefully last forever and some souvenirs....and huh a couple of jerseys! (Laughs)


Posted on 07/11/2006 10:49 PM Comments (7)

July 9, 2006

we are the damned-dat with a stranger behinde....its lame but shut up i try

Ville woke up,plopped down on his big red velvet chair.He sat there looking out the bay window,just thinking.His cell phone started to ring.It was Bam."hello?" "yo,hurry up are you ready yet?"Bam said rushing him."for what..?" "for your DATE!!with Vam and us.." "oh yeah shit I totally forgot!!!"he didnt even bother to say good-bye he hanged up the phone and rushed into the bathroom.Lolind came in while he was shaving."hey,Victoria and Hexina are here..."he said scratching his ass with a cup of coffee in hand."what why are they here?"he said glaring down the hall."well Victoria has no prob with you going on a date she is happy so she wanted to help you know what to say and well she just dragged Hexina on with her." "what I dont need any help at all I know what to say I've been on a date plenty of times"he said strongly and defensively."tell her that,not me."he said and walked out of the room.Ville walked out were every one else was."why is every one here ,its not like I haven't been on a date before..."he said lifting one eye brow."hehe yeah I know...but what Bam told me I wanted to make sure you don't screw this one up"Vicotria said smiling."uugghh...."Ville grounded at her."ok you know what to do then...always get her every thing she should never have to get up...if you see a rose pick it and give it her...don't look at  other girls while your there'' "or guys.."Hexina said blowing her lips like a horse."um yeah...and always open the door for her and pull her chair out and-" "yeah I know what to do."Ville said cutting her off.


 Bam called and said he was out side waiting for him.Ville got up and left...while Victoria was trying to make sure he looked nice."man..glad you cam they were driving me insane!"Ville said getting in."ok we just have to get the girls now." While they were driving Ville noticed a car always behind them."hey Bam,did you notice that car behind us?"he said looking back nervously.Bam looked in his rear view marrow..."oh yeah I kinda did but didn't really pay attention to it..most likely just going the same way we are." Bam said shrugging it off."yeah I guess so."Ville said still a little nervous.They got to the girls lair and honked the horn.Vam came running out..."wow that was loud haha."she said putting her finger in hear ear."Kayla will be out in a sec. she umm...well im not sure but its taking a long time.Man I was done like 30 min. ago haha she is still not done"she said laughing.''ill go help her then."Bam said and went in to help Kayla.It was Ville and Vam alone in the car. "so...is it just me or does Hexina seam mad at me?"Vam said trying to start a conversation."ah well I have no idea...shes not mad at you she is mad at me." "oh couse we have been friends in college ana all..."she said looking down."oh I didn't know you knew her befor..." "oh yeah and Victoria and Lolind.I herd them talk about you befor but I never met you till yesterday."she said lifting her eyes from the ground."oh wow they never mentioned you befor.Now I wish they did." Ville said smiling into her eyes."haha yeah so do I."she said and smiled back.Ville looked out side and noticed the same car parked around the corner.He didn't want to mention it to Vam or Kayla so he ignored it.


 Bam came out with Kayla holding onto his arm."man I don't know why it took so long haha we're not waring any thing special."Kayla said getting in.She was right Vam, was warring some ripped jeans and a black tank top,Kayla was warring black pants with cuts across the pockets and knees with a red t-shirt with a skull on it.The boys had a blazer on and a pare of jeans on.Ville and Vam were talking and getting to know each other as they drove to the restraint.Bam kept looking in his back marrow."you ok hun?You keeping looking behind us..."Kayla said worriedly to Bam."oh yeah im fine...nothing wrong behind us." that made Kayla keep looking behind.They reached the restraint.It was a vamp. restraint so they didn't have to worry bout not showing there fangs or he bright lights.Bam walked in holding the door behinds him till kayla got there then let it go and it hit her on the side.Ville grabbed it and held it for Kayla to finish entering the room and then for vam then closed it behind him."thank you Ville that was so sweet."Kayla said glaring at Bam,he just shrugged his shoulders.The hostes showed them to there table and bam sat down and Kayla did after,Vam began to but Ville stopped her and pulled her chair out for her.Kayla opened her mouth and glared strongly at Bam.They looked over the menus and then a waiter came and took there orders."and to drink ma'am." um berbin with young blood in it please."Vam said."um I'll have the same please"Kayla said."um ill just have blood any kind I dont care."Bam said"wow that's a first."Kayla said sarcasticly.Bam shook his head.They all were talking and all when a man came.They were having a great time so they wanted to go see a movie,when they got up another person fallowed them right behind them.They drove to the theater,"hey what movie should we watch?"Bam said looking at the selections."how bout the omen?"Kayla asked."Na ,I went to see that with Bob last week,but if you guys haven't seen it then alright."vam said,Ville looked down,"its her brother man."Bam said smirking.Vam giggled a little."oh..." they went in and sat down.Some one sat down behind them it kind of looked like the same person at the restraint.The girls didn't seam to notice.Ville put his arm on the arm rest not knowing Vams was already there,he jerked it up as he touched her cold soft hands.She grabbed his back and held it tight,the warmth in his hands began to flow into hers.She laid her head onto his chest,and smiled a smile that could kill all evil.He looked back and that person was staring at him and Vam when he looked at him/her they looked away trying to act casual.Kayla was tight into Bams arms holding onto him as they watch the screen.Her head buried into him as a jumpy part came open.The movie came to an end.they walked out holding onto each other."hey lets go to Jumbo Juice?" Bam said jumping up as they passed it."oh yeah I haven't been there for ever!"vam said jumping up too(people would think they should be together couse there personalty is almost the same.)They got there drinks and walked around the dark murky vamp. mall they were at.When Villes phone wrung."Ville some one broke into your house!!!"

 

hope you like this one hehe the next one should be good...i hope hehe im working in it now!!

 

ha love you guys

vam-brooke


Posted on 07/09/2006 2:53 PM Comments (4)

July 8, 2006

cross my heart-lost part

the lost part of cross my heart.


 
 I walked down the road with Kayla.We were walking to Villes place.Every one was already there when we got there."hey guys!"me and Kayla said as we walked in."hey Vam,hey Kayla.Ville said handing us a drink.I sat in the big soft chair by the T.V. Ville being himself of course jumped right on me.bam lifted his eyes brows up and down at Jussi."So what do you guys want to do today?"Aishya asked."oh,i dont know ...a movie?" Kayla suggested."nah,we have seen probley every movie they have out."Bam groaned."well then..what do you want to do?"kayla said addressing Bam."man I dont know why dont we just hang here?" "no,its to boring here."Ville said."why don we go to Zamoras and decide there..."I suggested."sure" "ok" "I need a beer." they all said.So we went down and talked it all out.I looked at Ville and he smiled and started to blush.I giggled a little and smiled back.Bam looked at Jussi and Aishya looked at Kayla.Then Bam whispered some thing to Jussi,I didn't no what though."hey,i have an idea lets go to the mall."Kayla suddenly said."no we went there yesterday!"I groaned."yeah and besides what are we going to do there any ways?''Bam said.Kayla shrugged her shoulders.''then what the hell are we going to DO!!!"Aishya said throwing her hands up."now,now dont go Don Vito on us here."Bam said laughing.And did that make Aishya break down."WHAT!!your calling me fat!!!How could you!Do I look fat Vam?"she had a total melt down."um,nah,...you look great!Bam how could you say that."I said trying to stay on Aishyas good side.Bam glared at me he knew I was lying haha really honestly she looked kinda wasted like she had not slept for days probley couse she had 1 to many beers."but..you...you...UUUGGHHH!!!" "you'll pay for this Vam." he said staring at me evilly."what the hell did I do?"  Aishya looked at me.I shrugged my shoulders."tell you later..."Bam said holding back he knew if he said that i was lying that Aishya would totally blow...but then I would get him back so BAD haha.


 Well we couldn't fined anything to do so we went to mine and Kaylas place.Aishya was totally wasted...she was throwing up and I had to hold her hair since it was my turn to help the drunk one.During that time she said who knows what.All I got was Jussi Bam and Kayla."I love you vam"she slurred"your like a brother to me man!!"she said and grabbed on to me."and kayla,and bam Ville and Jussi are like sisters to me.I love you guys!!I sat down in the middle of the flour.I was exosted from helping Aishya out.After awhile my phone wrong."Nina..." A small unclear voice said."um..yes..who is this." "I...I...need your help." "who is this."I looked at Kayla every one was fixed on me as I spoke."its me,Jake."I dropped the phone...it was my brother...that I hadn't spoken to since I was about 3 or 4."what's wrong what do you need..."I picked the phone up and asked."Nina...Im dieing...I need you here by my said...you are the only family I got left.I don't want to die alone!" "what...you are dieing...ware are you?" he told me the hospitable he was at I ran out the door not eve informing every one else what was going on and what I was doing ot ware I was going.I drove quickly to the hospitable.I think my phone wrong a few times but I didn't answer.A nurse showed me to his room."Jake...are you ok?"I asked as  sat down next to him.I grabbed his hand and he opened his eyes slowly."Nina you came,I didn't know who else to call." "Jake I haven't talked to you in 17 years or so." "yes I know,I ...I never called befor couse I was scared...that you would not love me...or except me since...well our family what we did to you." "Jake I am your sister it was never your fault that the past had happened,no matter what im here for you.NO matter what."i said and smiled sweetly."Nina...thank you." "please call me Vam."I said,his face scrunched up."VAM!Haha were did you get that name." "its a long storey."I shook my head.It was silent for a moment."how much longer do you have?" he froze for a second."oh...not to long,I think.Im not sure,I don't think I really want to know." We talked for awhile and the nurse said I had to leave.

I went back home and every one was still there jus as I had left them."were the hell have you been?"Bam said as I walked in."Jake is dieing."I bowed my head in sadness."your brother Jake?"Ville said getting up."yes"I said and I started to hold tears back. sat down end buried my head into a billow.Ville came over and sat next to me,"I don't get it he has never been there for you he has never talked to you why now,If I were you I would never have gone."Bam said shaking his head.I lifter my head up and my eyes were narrowed and full of horar,"he is my brother,I am always going to be there for him not matter what,no one deserves to die alone and not loved.He is my family he was the only one that had treated me right,I am always there for him no matter what."I got up and stormed into my bedroom.Kayla smacked Bam across the face and left a red hand prink across his face.Ville and Kayla ran in after me."its ok we will go tomorrow and see him ok."Kayla said as I cried.Ville put his arms around me."go ahead...cry...it will help." I shook my head no,I don't cry.i got up and went into the bathroom,then I walked out into the kitchen.

 It was late every one left.I went to bed early to I could wake up and go see Jake.I got up and left.I got to the hospitable."Hello,I am hear to see Jake Wilson." the front desk man eyes sunk and his face turned cold,"he has passed,last night.I am sorry there was nothing they could do.I shook my head,I ran out to my car.I sat in it and cried...cried and cried.I started home my eyes were blurred with tears as I drove.i got home and fell onto the couch.Every one was over"what's wrong..."I looked up and they saw my red burning eyes of tears full of sorrow,"oh...he..."Jussi said and his eyes sank.Ville sat e next to me.I smiled at him."well why don't we forget all this and watch a movie"Bam asked."oh yes I need that."I said,as I walked past Ville I smiled at him softy.Bam looked at Jussi and Jussi at him they raised there eyes brows at each other."ille get popcorn."I said"ill get some drinks and all'Jussi said and we went into the kitchen.''whats with you and Ville?"he asked smirking."oh' we are just good friends...well its not how I would like it to be its just..well..."I said scattered"aahhh haa I knew it, I knew you guys had a thing for each other!!" he said kinda loud.''shut up! yes ok I like him...ALOT but there is no reason to blurt it out." "oh yes there is,seams to me he likes ya back."he said and smiled then walked out into the other room.

 

 

hope you liked this...no we are the damned is not over yet but might be soon i just did this for fun =Dso hope you liked it

 

luv you

vam-brooke


Posted on 07/08/2006 5:29 PM Comments (3)

July 4, 2006

we are the damned-does she like me

 They rushed Bam down to Villes lair.Villes eyes were still full of guilt and tears."dont worry Ville he is going to be fine,Hexina is a expert at this kind of stuff remember."Victoria said  sitting down next to Ville."every one has to get out of the room,I need it dark and clear."Hexina said pushing them out of the room."Ville,are you ok..."Lolind said looking at him worriedly."I dont know,I..I...was blind sighted,I should of sense that she was bad...but she was just so....so..."  "hot...sexy"Lolind answered for him."well...yeah." "it wasn't you fault you should not feel guilty about this."Victoria said putting her arms around him.He pushed her away and turned his head away."it was my fault,I should of told him before,I should of not been so blind sighted,I should of told him to look out sooner,I should of never gotin him into this before..." he said sadly holding tears back."Ville,there was nothing you could do its not your fault...it never will be....Bam will understand dont worry."Victoria said lifting his chin up.Ville got up and left the room.Victoria got up but Lolind stopped her"let him be to his thoughts."


 hexina came out."I stopped the bleeding but he is going to change we cant stop him from changing now,there is nothing we can do."  "well is he ok?"Lolind asked."yeah he is fine..the only problem is he wants a beer"she said with a wide smirk across her face.Bam walked out and gave Hexina a kiss of thanks."were is Ville?"he asked looking around.

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 Ville was at a club,sitting alone.When a young girl sat next to him."yeah,um ill like Desarona vodka"she said another girl sat next to her''ill have the same please."she said then glanced at Ville.Her eyes shined even though there was no light.The girl whispered some thing to her friend and she looked back at Ville.She smiled."hey what's your name?"the girl next to him asked."oh...um."they giggled a little."its Ville."he said blushing."im Kayla,this is my friend Vam."she said introducing them selfs.Kayla was tall and dark but strikenling beautiful,with dark black eyes and a smile to die for.Vam a bit shorter,and as beautiful as Kayla.she had green eyes that changed in different lighting,but yet she look sad on the inside."so you look a bit sad is any thing wrong."Vam asked him and got him a drink.He felt like he could really trust then he senses goodness and high power in them.he told them the whole story.He tried not to cry but it just came out."WHAT, BAM!!!"Kayla screamed,she started to cry Vam rushed to her side and held her trying to comfort her.Ville eyes were shocked and puzzled."what's wrong." "Bam is her boyfriend,"Vam said as she cried on her shoulder,"oh..I did not know that."
foolishly Ville asked,''so do you have a boyfriend?"Vams eyes sunck."wait I didnt mean that ,well I did just not at the moment."Ville said rushing.Kayla lifted her head up and smiled then let out a small giggle."but is he going to be ok."her face went stern."I dont know yet I left and came here."we need to go I got to find out." "ill call them ok just hold on."he grabbed his cell phone out and called Lolind,he told Ville that he was fine but he still was going to change,and that they were going to go to a club.Ville told Kayla that and she jumped up and smiled a smile for the angels.They went to the club that Ville was at.Bam ran in and picked kayla up and swung her around.He dropped her on a couch and went to Ville,he punched him on the shoulder playfully."aw man why do you feel so bad...kayla was going to turn me anyway haha forgot to tell you guys that."he said smirking.Ville looked at Vam and she smiled at him,Bam looked at them and smiled,"so you like her huh" "yeah,I barley know her and I feel this strong connection with her." Bam nodded he walked over to her"wait Bam what are you doing."Ville said trying to stop him."shut up ,it will work trust me.." "the last time you did that I ended up in jail." Bam ignored him.Him and Vam talked awhile and he came back and sat down.He lifted his eye brows up and down."what did you say and what did she say back?"Ville said anxiously"I told her what you said." "what in the hell would you do that for."  "dude,she said she felt exactly the same,she wants to get to know you, so me you and Kayla and Vam are going out tomorrow."he said biting his lips with a smile.

 The night was leaving so they had to leave."hey Bam want to crash out at my place?" ville offered."na im going to stay with Kayla and Vam"he said and put his arm around Kayla."bye guys." "hey Ville can I crash at yours Hexina is really bitchy right now?"Lolind said and Hexina flipped him off."yeah you can,why is she bitchy?"  "Ill tell you when we get to your place"he said nervously.
they got to Villes and Lolind sat down."she is mad chouse she herd that you like that hot chick named V..Vam I think."he said"why does she care?"he said poring some drinks."I dont know she doesnt have intumit feeling for you,I guess since you use to really like her allot then it just didnt work out,then now you have moved on I guess she is jealous now."he said grabbing a glass."I dont get that she was the one who said it wouldn't work out between us,she is the one who left me cold,and I still treat her like a friend..."Ville said annoyed at her."yeah well you can never tell with her."he said swishing the blood mixed with red wine in his glass.They went to sleep after the finished there drinks.

 

so there is my next part there is probley onley going to be 2 or 3 more of these since im going back to cross my heart!!YAY!!thank you fo all your suport hope you like it!!


Posted on 07/04/2006 2:09 PM Comments (5)
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