yeha like fuck it

 When she left.I buried my face into my pillow and cried.Cried my eyes out.I never knew I had that much water in my body to have cried all that out.This was way to much for me...I can't do this.Why don't i just give up.Why can't I just die?! I just want to let go take the burden off my shoulders.Escape from this cruel world.I cant take this any more!!!!"Vam what's wrong?" Ville walked in.I turned me head over and he saw my running make up from my tears.He walked over and sat next to me."darling what's wrong,you were fine befor..."  I tried to stop crying but I couldn't."mom...she..."I began it was to hard for me to speak ,to hard to say what has happed.It hurt so much."mom...she...she...she..is going to.....di..di...die" I cried I never stopped..I mean I've cried but not like this.It was none stop it seamed like it would never end.Sadness will never end!

 I looked away from him.I hate it when people see me cry!He put his hand on my shoulder then raped his arms around me." I can't belive this is happening to me" I said as I sobbed."why does this have to happen now" I rolled my body into Villes.He gently wiped the tears off my cheek and kiss my forehead.I just wanted to die!WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE!?!?I felt like the end would never come.That this ...endless dark in my life would never leave me.As Ville rocked me in his arms and I wept,I felt no comfort.I just wanted lay down and die.I wanted to feel no pain no longer."Ville,honey can I be alone now?" I asked separating myself from him."oh yes,of course.I love you" he said and let go of my hand.He left and I fell back into my bed.I looked around.I saw used needles in a box near the door.I stared at it crying.I asked the nurse if she could shut the curtains and that I could be alone with no one coming in.She nodded her head and closed the curtains and she left.I got up and slowly waled to the needles.Every step it grew harder to walk.My heart punded hard,but quite like it was falling into my gut.I opened the box and grabbed a needle and walked to my bed.I sat there with it in my hand staring at it.I held it up looking at the long point of it.I brought it down and derived it into my skin.I pulled it out and blood began to drip from it and pored out of my skin.All of a sudden the door flew open.It was cloude with some roses.She was smiling,until she saw the needle in my hand and blood dripping from it.Tears fell from my face,they had black in them from my make up,it was as if I was crying black tears."VAM!!!"her eyes were wide and the red roses she had brought fell from her hands."what are you doing?!"she ran over and Ville came running in too.she grabbed the needle and threw it,then grabbed me arm to see what I did.She squeezed it so hard that she pushed blood from under my skin and it bled out.

 The doctor ran in.He took one look at what I did and ran out.He brought the nurse and they had a bunch of things to clean it out."I...I..."I started and tears fell from my face."Don't you ever ,ever do that again!!" Cloude grabbed my shoulders and shook me.I looked up at her and said."I just wanted to be free..."

i hope you liked it,it is a little short but good i hope thank you all.for reading please post a comment!=D