yeha like fuck it

 The next thing I knew, a woman was screaming .Blood was gushing out of my head,after every heart beat dark blood ran out.I laid there helpless,when two men picked me up and put me on a stretcher.My mind went blank,they ask me my name,I didn't answer,I couldn't remember.He asked me who's my family."Jake..." I said.No Jake is dead,Jake is dead.I don't know what I was saying.My head was covered in blood,it started to dry and became flaky.They brought me into the emergency room and cleaned my head up and my face.The room blurred and I drifted off.

 I woke up and my head was sore.I touched the top of my head and I felt stitching all across it. I fell back on the bed and blew out a gasp of air."oh good your up." the nurse said walking in."were going to need some one to contact." "oh yes in my wallet in my purse there should be a couple phone #s." she went off and called Ville.He brought Kayla and Bam with him."hey darling,what happened.I woke up and you were gone again." "oh well I went to the store...and well" "yeah the nurse told us."Bam nodding his head."yeah you must of token a hard hit on the ground.Do you know why you fell?" Kayla exclaimed."no I don't,and I don't think I really do and it will just make me more scared that I'm going to die."  "you are not going to die!!"Ville seamed earitated,and walked off."  "what I'd say."I shrugged."uugghh." Kayla said and went after him."I was just playing around."I was worried I said something bad,but I don't see how I didn't really think I was going to die."well this is probley just to much for him Vam.So many things has happened,he cares so much he doesn't want you to die and all.Joking around about this may be a way for you to cope but not him."  "hhmmm when did you become so wise?"  "Since I met Kayla."  "haha,well I guess your right.I didn't know this was so hard for him,I thought it was hard on me..." Kayla came in "he is ok he just over reacted he says.I think all this is getting to his head." "oh well I didn't mean to be like that I was just joking around,I hope he knows that." "yeah I told him that and he knows.He just needs time to think."  "I guess right now isn't a good time to ask if I can have a beer..."I said smiling.Every one laughed.I was just joking I really wasn't going to even thought I REALLY WANT ONE!!!But I love them more than any beer,more then life its self,more then any thing(and my family of course too).VIlle walked in and began"I'm sorry Vam I just..."  "its ok I didn't mean it like that love,I was just playing around" "yeah I know,I just over reacted." I gave him a kiss,it seamed like we haven't kiss for along time.In about 2 days.

 They all left and I was left in the big fully white room,that smelled like old people.I tried to sleep but to much was on my mind.I thought about what is going to happen,was this really going to happen.I am really going to have a liver transplant.Wow I don't know if im ready for this?!Oh crap man,I can't do this!I don't know what to do.I don't want to go in there.Man this is when I really need my father.

 My mother came in.She sat next to me and cried."mom what's wrong" I mean this wasn't crying this was sobbing like rivers of tears."Nina this maybe a bad time to set this on your shoulders,but honey I have cancer.The doctor just caught it and.."she paused and tried to hold her tears.She looked away and wiped her red nose with a damp tissue."he said its too late,I'm going to ba staying in the hospital tomorrow until...until...I pass." as she spoke I started to cry.This is too much!!I can't deal with this!!! Why now !?Why does she have to do this to me!!??And why does it happen to me,does god have some thing against me?!What did I ever do to deserve this!?