yeha like fuck it

 When I went to check in they first had me do a doctors check up.They did the usual,made me pee in a cup blood tests...I rather not talk about that.As I waited I noticed a girl...she kept looking at me.She was about my age.She walked over and sat next to me."so why are you here?"She asked me with a shy tence voice."alcoholic...you?" I said ashamed."same here I just got out today...but I could not help but notice how sad you look."   "oh...well I have gone through allot,thank you."I turned my head in annoyance."oh...as have I,Im sorry I didn't mean to be..."  "its ok you meant nothing by it.My name is Vam."I help my hand out for a shake."Cloude"she smiled and shook my hand.We talk for awhile,then she had to leave,she gave me her phone# since we had so much in common it would be nice to hang out.I waited with Ville and Kayla...when the doctor came out his face did not look calm."Ma'am...when we tested your blood,we found out you have a problems with your liver."I felt my heart slide down my gut.I felt tears come but I held it back."we specifically did a blood test for something like this.Im very sorry." yeah right he wasn't sorry...I cloud tell in his voice it was not sad or not happy it had no emotions.I looked over at Ville and Kayla...they were crying.Why wasn't I...I felt like I had to but I just didn't.The doctor said he could get a transplant for me in a week or 2 depends how far away it is.

 Right when I got home I called cloude even though
I barley knew her I felt like I need to call her first."WHAT!! Wow! Im so, so sorry!I am going to be right over there what's you address?"  "696(hehe) soundgarden RD." what a cool address isn't it!He drove right over.She ran in and went right to my side.Right when she sat next to me I began to cry...it all came out.It was like I was waiting for her to let it all out.She listen every word,she helped me feel hope.I just met here and I feel like I have known her for years.The more I talked to her the more comfort I felt,till I was on the ground laughing till my gut bursts opened.She was telling me some random things and I just burst out laughing.When the phone wrung.Ville slowly handed it to me with a concerned look."hello?"  "Miss.Nina we have a liver for you! we will be able to do the surgery in 10 days." The nurse said on the other line.Some reason that did not give me any comfort.I told Ville he called Bam and Kayla they called every one else so the word was out and befor i knew it every one was over at my house.I introduced every one to cloude and they all instantly became friends with her.After awhile it became very silent,every one was just staring at the ground.When I saw VIlle...he had his head buried in a pillow,he turned his head and I saw little spots of tears.I guess he was crying...I went over to his side and whispered "I'm going to be alright.The nurse said I can have the surgery in 10 days,its all going to be ok." "I no,but what if its not!?what if some thing happens,WHAT IF YOU DIE!?" "then you will just have to get through life with out me,what ever happens we will get through." it seams like that's some thing he would say to me,instead of me saying it to him."well what if this next 10 days is the last i get to spend with you?"  "then we will have to make the best,even though its not going to be the last 10 days." Ville lifted his head up and lifted one eye brow."guys were going to need some time alone..." and he smiled evilly with shifty eyes.Every one has a smile across there face."so why don't we just have a bunch of fun these next 10 days"I said and jumped up and clapped my hands.

 That night we did every thing fun we could think of.We played games,watched movies,swam in the pool,went to Bams and Kaylas for hot tubbing every thing you could think of.We were having s much fun until...I snuck in the kitchen to get a drink of water,then there it was sitting there on the counter waiting for me to drink it.Was a beer.I slowly reached for it forgetting every thing that had happened that day,every thing around me revolved around that bottle of beer.I slowly grabbed it and opened it quickly.I typed it to my mouth,and let it slide down my throughout."VAM!!" Kayla walked in."huh,what!?" I was so surprised I forgot what I was doing.She grabbed the bottle and pored it down the drain,Cloude came in and shook her head.She walked into the bathroom.Every one else came in to dry off and get changed.When Ville saw the open bottle of beer he took my arm and pooled me in the living room."vam.what are you doing you said you would not drink any more?"  "why can't I just a little bit its not like I'm drinking every second of my life."  "Vam,can you at least wait until you get the transplant,you don't have to quite completely just like 2 a day or some thing." I sighed and then I agreed with him.I wanted that beer so badly!But I knew that's what they wanted for now,I don't know how long I can go with out it...wait I guess that means I am a hard alcholic then....WHAT!!??