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 I woke up in the middle of the night to my heavy breathing and damp hot face.I turned to my side looking out our bay window,with the moon staining back at me.I got up and slipped my red silk robe on and walked into the kitchen stepping on the cold hard tile.I reached into the fridge to get a nice cold beer,when my mother and father rushed through my mind.I leaned agents the counter as I thought of them.My eyes suddenly ran to the calender and I saw that it was the day the adopted me.I went into the living room and streched out on our soft black velvet couch.I laid there for a second then herd Ville voice"hey Vam you ok?" I eminently sprang up."oh yeah,I'm fine just having trouble sleeping"  "oh...well..I'm gonna go back to bed,how about you?" he said as he yawned like a lion."hm..I'll try I guess."I said and walked in with him.He instantly fell back asleep,but I...laid there again.I struggled to find a comfortable place.I flopted on my back then my side and to my stomic and all.I staired strate up at the ceeling.Thinking of my parents,and then my birth parents,my brother jake.The past memeries of my home befor I was adopted...how they treated me and Jake.Just thinking about it made me saddened but full of rage.Hours went by and I still could not sleep.So I decided to get up and take a shower.I let the hot water run across my body like a water fall.I standed leting run across me for what seamed like hours.I got out and dried my body and instently raped my slef around my robe.I didn't bother with make up or cantacts.I just wore my glasses,I brushed my hair out and put it up out of the way.I went down staires into the celler and opend a bottle of red wine,and sat out on our up staired porch.The sun was just about to rise,it was beautiful.Rays of the sun shot through the cloudes like angels falling from the hevans.I grew into a trance of the beautiy,my eyes wide,a smile across my face.I haven't seen the sun rise for so long,usualy i'm sleeping of a hang over or I went to bed at 4 am and woke up at 3 pm.I was hit into reality from the sound of the fromt door flying open.

 " oh hey guys." I said walking in.It was Kayla and Bam with Dunn fallowing behind them."hey love" Kayla said and gave me a hug."hey Dunn hows it going?"I said and gave him a peck on the cheek."well..its going,at least."he said lighting a ciggy."you guys are here early." Ville said walking in and rubbing his eyes."oh yeah,well the dogs went crazy at the paper boy and woke us up,so we figured to go here even if you wern't up"  "well thats nice to know were the head house."  "haha yeah and Aishya and Jussi  want some "ALONE TIME" Bam said evening making the quote marks."oohh I see!" Dunn walked into the bathroom and Ville suddenly turned to me"Vam hunny how bout you out a little more clothes on..." he said and he kiss my cheeke."why?" "well um Dunn just broke up with Katie and he is probley looking for more then friendship with girls right now....and well...you know" he said making his eye grow wide."oohh yeah...I'll be right back"I said and darted into the bedroom.I threw on the closest clothes to me.I hurried to the frdge to get another beer,as I tiped it to my mouth Ville stoped me."its to early,you have had to much this morning."and he grabbed the bottle from my hand.My eyes narrowed and I grabbed it back and gulped it down."babe..."  "you are telling me to stop drinking!? Who is the king of alchole here!? You drink way more then me EVEN BAM!! Mayba even more then me and him put together! and you are telling me to stop,its to early...that i've had enough!!"I yelled out...why was he telling ME I should be telling him and when I do he never listens...he doesn't have any buissness to tell me to stop..its to early...I had to much.I stormed into the living room.Every ones eyes fixed on me and the bottle of beer in my hand.Ville walked in slowly and sat next to Bam."Vam...don't you think you have had enough this morining?"Kayla said with Villes same idea."I don't need this!I don't need you telling me what to do! telling me when I have had enough!I don't meed any of yu right now,espeshly today I DON"T NEED THIS BULL SHIT I HAVE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH OF IT!!" I screamed and ran out the door.I drove to the nearest bar.I drank and I drank"hey there little lady I need to cut you off there...you have had to much.Its not even noone yet."the bar tender said and gave me the bill.I was to tiered and drunk to even bother getting mad.I took out a 50 dallor bill and gave it to him"kee...keep the change Mr."I slured.I stumbled down the streat forgeting I had a car good thing to should neveDRINK  and DRIVE.I triped over a rock and passes out on the curb.Next thing I knew was I woke up in a police car.

 "you got one call!" I called Villes cell"Ville baby,come get me out of jell...it horable here they make you eat poop!"I was still drunk."JELL!"I herd Kayla yell in the background."ok we..we will be right there hold on." he hanged up the phone but I didn;t relise it "hello ? HELLOOOO?!hmmm bastard."I said and hanged the phone up well I tried to I missed the recerver.Finaly Ville and Kalya came and picked me up."Vam!WHat the hell do you think you're doing!" Ville said as he drove me back home."uumm....I'm breathing!Thats what I think."  "uuggghhh!"Ville grouned.He carried me back to bed and i slept the rest of the day.