yeha like fuck it

the lost part of cross my heart.

 
 I walked down the road with Kayla.We were walking to Villes place.Every one was already there when we got there."hey guys!"me and Kayla said as we walked in."hey Vam,hey Kayla.Ville said handing us a drink.I sat in the big soft chair by the T.V. Ville being himself of course jumped right on me.bam lifted his eyes brows up and down at Jussi."So what do you guys want to do today?"Aishya asked."oh,i dont know ...a movie?" Kayla suggested."nah,we have seen probley every movie they have out."Bam groaned."well then..what do you want to do?"kayla said addressing Bam."man I dont know why dont we just hang here?" "no,its to boring here."Ville said."why don we go to Zamoras and decide there..."I suggested."sure" "ok" "I need a beer." they all said.So we went down and talked it all out.I looked at Ville and he smiled and started to blush.I giggled a little and smiled back.Bam looked at Jussi and Aishya looked at Kayla.Then Bam whispered some thing to Jussi,I didn't no what though."hey,i have an idea lets go to the mall."Kayla suddenly said."no we went there yesterday!"I groaned."yeah and besides what are we going to do there any ways?''Bam said.Kayla shrugged her shoulders.''then what the hell are we going to DO!!!"Aishya said throwing her hands up."now,now dont go Don Vito on us here."Bam said laughing.And did that make Aishya break down."WHAT!!your calling me fat!!!How could you!Do I look fat Vam?"she had a total melt down."um,nah,...you look great!Bam how could you say that."I said trying to stay on Aishyas good side.Bam glared at me he knew I was lying haha really honestly she looked kinda wasted like she had not slept for days probley couse she had 1 to many beers."but..you...you...UUUGGHHH!!!" "you'll pay for this Vam." he said staring at me evilly."what the hell did I do?"  Aishya looked at me.I shrugged my shoulders."tell you later..."Bam said holding back he knew if he said that i was lying that Aishya would totally blow...but then I would get him back so BAD haha.

 Well we couldn't fined anything to do so we went to mine and Kaylas place.Aishya was totally wasted...she was throwing up and I had to hold her hair since it was my turn to help the drunk one.During that time she said who knows what.All I got was Jussi Bam and Kayla."I love you vam"she slurred"your like a brother to me man!!"she said and grabbed on to me."and kayla,and bam Ville and Jussi are like sisters to me.I love you guys!!I sat down in the middle of the flour.I was exosted from helping Aishya out.After awhile my phone wrong."Nina..." A small unclear voice said."um..yes..who is this." "I...I...need your help." "who is this."I looked at Kayla every one was fixed on me as I spoke."its me,Jake."I dropped the phone...it was my brother...that I hadn't spoken to since I was about 3 or 4."what's wrong what do you need..."I picked the phone up and asked."Nina...Im dieing...I need you here by my said...you are the only family I got left.I don't want to die alone!" "what...you are dieing...ware are you?" he told me the hospitable he was at I ran out the door not eve informing every one else what was going on and what I was doing ot ware I was going.I drove quickly to the hospitable.I think my phone wrong a few times but I didn't answer.A nurse showed me to his room."Jake...are you ok?"I asked as  sat down next to him.I grabbed his hand and he opened his eyes slowly."Nina you came,I didn't know who else to call." "Jake I haven't talked to you in 17 years or so." "yes I know,I ...I never called befor couse I was scared...that you would not love me...or except me since...well our family what we did to you." "Jake I am your sister it was never your fault that the past had happened,no matter what im here for you.NO matter what."i said and smiled sweetly."Nina...thank you." "please call me Vam."I said,his face scrunched up."VAM!Haha were did you get that name." "its a long storey."I shook my head.It was silent for a moment."how much longer do you have?" he froze for a second."oh...not to long,I think.Im not sure,I don't think I really want to know." We talked for awhile and the nurse said I had to leave.

I went back home and every one was still there jus as I had left them."were the hell have you been?"Bam said as I walked in."Jake is dieing."I bowed my head in sadness."your brother Jake?"Ville said getting up."yes"I said and I started to hold tears back. sat down end buried my head into a billow.Ville came over and sat next to me,"I don't get it he has never been there for you he has never talked to you why now,If I were you I would never have gone."Bam said shaking his head.I lifter my head up and my eyes were narrowed and full of horar,"he is my brother,I am always going to be there for him not matter what,no one deserves to die alone and not loved.He is my family he was the only one that had treated me right,I am always there for him no matter what."I got up and stormed into my bedroom.Kayla smacked Bam across the face and left a red hand prink across his face.Ville and Kayla ran in after me."its ok we will go tomorrow and see him ok."Kayla said as I cried.Ville put his arms around me."go ahead...cry...it will help." I shook my head no,I don't cry.i got up and went into the bathroom,then I walked out into the kitchen.

 It was late every one left.I went to bed early to I could wake up and go see Jake.I got up and left.I got to the hospitable."Hello,I am hear to see Jake Wilson." the front desk man eyes sunk and his face turned cold,"he has passed,last night.I am sorry there was nothing they could do.I shook my head,I ran out to my car.I sat in it and cried...cried and cried.I started home my eyes were blurred with tears as I drove.i got home and fell onto the couch.Every one was over"what's wrong..."I looked up and they saw my red burning eyes of tears full of sorrow,"oh...he..."Jussi said and his eyes sank.Ville sat e next to me.I smiled at him."well why don't we forget all this and watch a movie"Bam asked."oh yes I need that."I said,as I walked past Ville I smiled at him softy.Bam looked at Jussi and Jussi at him they raised there eyes brows at each other."ille get popcorn."I said"ill get some drinks and all'Jussi said and we went into the kitchen.''whats with you and Ville?"he asked smirking."oh' we are just good friends...well its not how I would like it to be its just..well..."I said scattered"aahhh haa I knew it, I knew you guys had a thing for each other!!" he said kinda loud.''shut up! yes ok I like him...ALOT but there is no reason to blurt it out." "oh yes there is,seams to me he likes ya back."he said and smiled then walked out into the other room.

hope you liked this...no we are the damned is not over yet but might be soon i just did this for fun =Dso hope you liked it

luv you

vam-brooke