yeha like fuck it

but just in case, ive been gone for a long time. ive changed soo much since ive been on. and its totally rad though. so yeah...i'll try to be more active on here and have fun even if no one cares or remembers me =P

well yeah later kidos

Brooke M.

before knows as Vam( lol how dumb was that!)

 He stepped in one step more and opened his mouth to speak but then closed it not knowing what to say."Is that what you think is that all you think I am doing is drinking?Do you know how hard it is on me!?Do you have any idea?" he paused."I do.When you were sick in Romania!Did you know how hard that was for me!?" really I don't think any of us know how that other felt..."well I do now!But I didn't have liver problems,I didn't colaps in the store and almost bleed to death!I didn't try to kill myself ,I didn't cut myself!!!DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW THAT IS TO HAVE SOME ONE YOU LOVE DO THAT!!"  "Yeah right its hard for you !Do you know what I have gone through my whole life!!Do you think I just go and hurt myself for fun couse I want to! I DON'T!!!! I DON'T!!!! I don't want to be like this but I am,I don't now what I am doing while I do it!I don't want to have these marks on my body I DON' T but I do it any ways and I don't know how to stop or why I am doing it in the first place!" "YES YOU DO!You know why you know that you are!I know you do and so do you ,you can't say that you don't!You have a choice ,a choice to do it or not!You don't have to be that way,you don't have to cut your self!"  " I don't know what else to do!I can't stop its like drugs to me,I use to be on them and getting through this is harder then drugs couse the drugs are probley what's causing this,I JUST CAN'T STOP NO MATER HOW HARD I TRY!!!!! I HOPE I DIE NOW, just stab me right in the heart cut my wrists!!!" he shook his head"ok I will fucking cutter just role up in a ditch and die!!!I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!!!!!"he yelled back and walked off.Every ones eyes were wide open and their mouths were dropped.I was pissed and my face was full of anger.I looked at them and said frustrated"leave me alone...."and laid down and turned on my side.I don't need this pressure tomorrow is the day...the day I go in.
 

It came to fast,before I knew it the nurse came in and said"30 more min." I took a deep breath.Every one was there...except for...Ville."why isn't he hear?"I said panicked."I tried to call him but he didn't pick up."Bam said miserably."but I have to go in now!"I held Kaylas hand tight as the nurse came in."its time..."she said putting in a fake smile."Don't leave me...promise you will be here!" I said worriedly and breathing hard."we wont we will be right here when you come back."she said calmly,and let go of my hand.As they rolled be down the hall I taught of what I said to Ville,and I regret every bit of it!ITS TO LATE!! What if I die!!I will never forgive myself!I haven't told him I love hm with all my heart,if I could I would give him the world and every thing in it.He holds my heart!I CAN'T DO THIS!"I can't ,I can't.I CAN'T!" i yelled as I saw the room witch my destination holds.I tried to get up but the nurse held me down."I CAN'T!!" I struggled to get out,"let me go!!!" I yelled I fraught them trying to get free."KAYLA!!!!!" I screamed.All of a sudden the doors bursted open.It wasn't Kayla it was Ville!!"Vam!I'm sorry I didn't mean what I said!" "I know either did I!"  " I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!" "I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Sr. you are going to have to leave now"one of the nurses said pushing him out.I stopped fighting them and I just let them take me.If I die at least he knows I love him and I know he loves me.They took me in and put the mask over my face and I drifted off to sleep.

 That night,Cloude and Ville stayed...to make sure I wouldn't do any thing.I waited for them to fall asleep.I went in my purse,I always keep a knife,and a sharp one too.I grabbed it quickly and ran to my bed.I started to make slits on my arm.The blood dripped out,drop by drop.Every cut more painfully then the last.But it helped,it helped me realize emotional pain, replacing it with physical.It helped me forget about life, and helped me know I was human that I bleed red,that I am alive,but yet I feel so dead, and cold.That I'm empty inside that I'm hallow on heart.Every slit showing me inside.Reliving that fear that I'm not dead,that I don't bleed black.But yet the scars on my body will remind me,will keep the memories,and will keep the scars on my heart.I don't want to be like this I don't want people to see he cuts on my arms,I don't want etention,its not a cry for love a cry for help!I herd someone move.So I quickly laid down and pretended to sleep.I peeked under my covers.I saw Ville get up and stretched then went outside.I held my bleeding arm tightly and held the knife with my cut arm.He came back in and sat back down.He arched over and buried his head in his arms and let out a bug sigh of frustration."Ville are you ok?" I said as I slid my knife under the pillow."yeah Im alright..."  "are you sure?"  "yeah...I just need to think...are you ok?"  "yeah" he came over and sat down.I moved my arm carefully so he would not see or sit on it.He laid down and put his arm around me.I snuggled my body into his and put my head on his chest.I listened to his heart beat,it was slow and soft.As I listened to his tender heart beat I drifted off to sleep.

 I woke up and the room was empty.I sat up and pulled my arm out from the covers and stared at the cuts on my arm.I slowly sawed my finger across them."hey.." I quickly covered my arm up."what's going on?" it was Dunn, Bam, and Kayla."oh hey...wheres Ville?" "I don't know his car isn't here when we got here so we thought he must of gone to a bar,or some thing..." Kayla said and shrugged her shoulders."probley..."I wish I could be at a bar."have you called his cell?"   "no not yet...I will now." Bam went out in the hall and called him.He was out there for along time."I wonder what they are talking about?"Kayla tried to listen to what Bam was saying but did not succeed.bam finally came in and had a worried look on his face."what's wrong."Kayla eminently said."Vam,Ville told me about last night..." I knew what he was talking about but I tried not too show it."huh?" "he said last night he felt the knife under your pillow...and he saw your arm.''Kayla let out a shriek.She came over and grabbed my arm."I can't belive it...I thought we were over with this,I thought you were ok"  "I am!There is nothing wrong with me.Im just fine."  "do you need attention?" Bam said like I was a child."NO! I don't need attention I don't need help!I don't need you guys riding on my back about it!!!"  :vam were not trying too,we want to help you..."  "I dont need help I am fine!" I wanted to leave but that would be weird in these hospital clothes.Intsead I just went under my covers laying there.firsts my face was full of fury and anger,then it let out and turned sad.I buried my face in and let just one tear fall from my dark eyes."why..." WHY!? Kayla asked why!?Has she even been hear ,does she even know what I have been going through right now! I thought she understood...but she asks why.I didn't answer I just laid there like a cold dead fish."Vam,why did you do it?"she asked again."why...hhmm why.Well I am laying on my death bed hopefully and my mom is dieing and the fucking love of my life isn't even here to comfort me and what seams like is trying to avoid me ...and you ask why?"I shook my head in shame."I...didn't know...that she was dieing...and Ville isn't avoiding you...he just need to think." "yeah im sure he is just thinking...he is probley at the nearest bar by now..." Bam shook his head."hes not,he is right here..." I turned my head and saw Ville standing in the doorway.

 When she left.I buried my face into my pillow and cried.Cried my eyes out.I never knew I had that much water in my body to have cried all that out.This was way to much for me...I can't do this.Why don't i just give up.Why can't I just die?! I just want to let go take the burden off my shoulders.Escape from this cruel world.I cant take this any more!!!!"Vam what's wrong?" Ville walked in.I turned me head over and he saw my running make up from my tears.He walked over and sat next to me."darling what's wrong,you were fine befor..."  I tried to stop crying but I couldn't."mom...she..."I began it was to hard for me to speak ,to hard to say what has happed.It hurt so much."mom...she...she...she..is going to.....di..di...die" I cried I never stopped..I mean I've cried but not like this.It was none stop it seamed like it would never end.Sadness will never end!

 I looked away from him.I hate it when people see me cry!He put his hand on my shoulder then raped his arms around me." I can't belive this is happening to me" I said as I sobbed."why does this have to happen now" I rolled my body into Villes.He gently wiped the tears off my cheek and kiss my forehead.I just wanted to die!WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE!?!?I felt like the end would never come.That this ...endless dark in my life would never leave me.As Ville rocked me in his arms and I wept,I felt no comfort.I just wanted lay down and die.I wanted to feel no pain no longer."Ville,honey can I be alone now?" I asked separating myself from him."oh yes,of course.I love you" he said and let go of my hand.He left and I fell back into my bed.I looked around.I saw used needles in a box near the door.I stared at it crying.I asked the nurse if she could shut the curtains and that I could be alone with no one coming in.She nodded her head and closed the curtains and she left.I got up and slowly waled to the needles.Every step it grew harder to walk.My heart punded hard,but quite like it was falling into my gut.I opened the box and grabbed a needle and walked to my bed.I sat there with it in my hand staring at it.I held it up looking at the long point of it.I brought it down and derived it into my skin.I pulled it out and blood began to drip from it and pored out of my skin.All of a sudden the door flew open.It was cloude with some roses.She was smiling,until she saw the needle in my hand and blood dripping from it.Tears fell from my face,they had black in them from my make up,it was as if I was crying black tears."VAM!!!"her eyes were wide and the red roses she had brought fell from her hands."what are you doing?!"she ran over and Ville came running in too.she grabbed the needle and threw it,then grabbed me arm to see what I did.She squeezed it so hard that she pushed blood from under my skin and it bled out.

 The doctor ran in.He took one look at what I did and ran out.He brought the nurse and they had a bunch of things to clean it out."I...I..."I started and tears fell from my face."Don't you ever ,ever do that again!!" Cloude grabbed my shoulders and shook me.I looked up at her and said."I just wanted to be free..."

i hope you liked it,it is a little short but good i hope thank you all.for reading please post a comment!=D

 The next thing I knew, a woman was screaming .Blood was gushing out of my head,after every heart beat dark blood ran out.I laid there helpless,when two men picked me up and put me on a stretcher.My mind went blank,they ask me my name,I didn't answer,I couldn't remember.He asked me who's my family."Jake..." I said.No Jake is dead,Jake is dead.I don't know what I was saying.My head was covered in blood,it started to dry and became flaky.They brought me into the emergency room and cleaned my head up and my face.The room blurred and I drifted off.

 I woke up and my head was sore.I touched the top of my head and I felt stitching all across it. I fell back on the bed and blew out a gasp of air."oh good your up." the nurse said walking in."were going to need some one to contact." "oh yes in my wallet in my purse there should be a couple phone #s." she went off and called Ville.He brought Kayla and Bam with him."hey darling,what happened.I woke up and you were gone again." "oh well I went to the store...and well" "yeah the nurse told us."Bam nodding his head."yeah you must of token a hard hit on the ground.Do you know why you fell?" Kayla exclaimed."no I don't,and I don't think I really do and it will just make me more scared that I'm going to die."  "you are not going to die!!"Ville seamed earitated,and walked off."  "what I'd say."I shrugged."uugghh." Kayla said and went after him."I was just playing around."I was worried I said something bad,but I don't see how I didn't really think I was going to die."well this is probley just to much for him Vam.So many things has happened,he cares so much he doesn't want you to die and all.Joking around about this may be a way for you to cope but not him."  "hhmmm when did you become so wise?"  "Since I met Kayla."  "haha,well I guess your right.I didn't know this was so hard for him,I thought it was hard on me..." Kayla came in "he is ok he just over reacted he says.I think all this is getting to his head." "oh well I didn't mean to be like that I was just joking around,I hope he knows that." "yeah I told him that and he knows.He just needs time to think."  "I guess right now isn't a good time to ask if I can have a beer..."I said smiling.Every one laughed.I was just joking I really wasn't going to even thought I REALLY WANT ONE!!!But I love them more than any beer,more then life its self,more then any thing(and my family of course too).VIlle walked in and began"I'm sorry Vam I just..."  "its ok I didn't mean it like that love,I was just playing around" "yeah I know,I just over reacted." I gave him a kiss,it seamed like we haven't kiss for along time.In about 2 days.

 They all left and I was left in the big fully white room,that smelled like old people.I tried to sleep but to much was on my mind.I thought about what is going to happen,was this really going to happen.I am really going to have a liver transplant.Wow I don't know if im ready for this?!Oh crap man,I can't do this!I don't know what to do.I don't want to go in there.Man this is when I really need my father.

 My mother came in.She sat next to me and cried."mom what's wrong" I mean this wasn't crying this was sobbing like rivers of tears."Nina this maybe a bad time to set this on your shoulders,but honey I have cancer.The doctor just caught it and.."she paused and tried to hold her tears.She looked away and wiped her red nose with a damp tissue."he said its too late,I'm going to ba staying in the hospital tomorrow until...until...I pass." as she spoke I started to cry.This is too much!!I can't deal with this!!! Why now !?Why does she have to do this to me!!??And why does it happen to me,does god have some thing against me?!What did I ever do to deserve this!?

 The next day I decided to go to my moms and tell her what has been going on.I didn't bother waking VIlle up to come with.On the way there I thought of what I was going to say,how I was going to start it."Mom I need a transplant...no that's to quick"I rehearsed.I went over every thing,her reaction,if she cried every thing.I finally reached her house,I felt nerve take over me.I nocked on the door.She slowly opened it and a smile went across her face when she saw me."hey mom."I said and gave her a big hug."Nina.What are you doing here,I wasn't expecting you or else I would of made some cookies or something." "its alright I don't think this kind of talk is something cookies should be involved"I saw her face go puzzled as i said this."oh what do you need to talk about?" "well I don't know how to really say this..." "Nina you can tell me anything,now what is it?"  "well mom a couple days ago I went to the doctors and well they did a blood test and it turns out there is something going wrong in my liver." A sudden gasp went inside her.She turned her head and began to cry.I didn't want to say it was couse of all that beer,that would kill her,I didn't want her to think I was a frailer."Mom don't worry they are getting a transplant for me in about a week."  "Nina how did this happen?"  "well..."  I began then my phone wrung.It was Ville."Vam ware are you?" "I am at my moms..." "oh well I didn't know are you were." yeah its alright don't fret I'll be home soon." when we hanged up I changed the subject to keep me from having to tell her I am an alcholic."Mom there is nothing to worry about I will be fine."I said calming."yes I know,but you are my child I love you.I can't bare to have someone I love as much as you to get hurt.With your father dieing and now this its to hard.This year has just been to hard."Her eyes were filled with tears,her voice was full of sadness."Im going to be alright,its just a little bump in the road,we always manage,we have been through so much were not going to let this change anything." she smiled and gave me a hug."well I'm sorry mom but I have got to get going now.I love you."I gave her a hug and kiss then left.

 On my way home I started to think of what could happen.'what if every thing isn't going to be alright?What if I do die,what if I go back to beer and drugs?WHAT IF!?' the what ifs that we all say,what ifs never do anything.There not going to help me with coping through all of this,but instead they made me scared.Scared that something horribly wrong is going to happen.As I passed by many bars I longed for a cold beer.I wanted to pull in and have just one drink,but I knew it was wrong.That I told every one that I wasn't going to do this.When I passed Zamoras the earge got so strong I actually pulled into the parking lot.I sat in my car holding back to go inside.I stared at the big sigh saying"Zamoras the best beer in town!" I finally made my mind up and pulled out and hurried home away from all this.Since Kayla and Ville pored all the beer down the drain or put it some ware I could not get.I walked in the door and went straight for my bed.I fell on it and laid there thinking"why me?why me?" really why did this happen to me why does every thing happen to me?! Never to any one else but me...as I thought about this I thought about Kayla,Ville,Bam,every one.How was this effecting them?What was going through their mind?VIlle head popped in through the door with a spoon of ice cream in his mouth."what's wrong sweetheart?" "oh nothing just my life is falling apart..." "its not falling apart,its just another bump in the road that we have to go over" that's what I just said to my mom...and its true...I think."well why are there so many for me,I see these people that there life is s perfect so great."  "well there not as tuff as you.In life if something wrong goes their way they wont know how to handle it,but you will this is just making you a better person." I guess..." "you guess?I know...like you said were going to get through every thing is going to be alright dont worry."I smiled and he offered me his spoon full of ice cream.I took it and popped it my mouth and we laughed together.Bam Kayla and Dico came over.About 15 minutes later Burton and gas popped over.We all watched a movie.I went in to get some more popcorn and Dico came in."you how you doing? fine" that's good." I reached up to get a bowl and Dico ran over"oh no here let me get that for you."  "uuhh thanks." When I went to get a drink Ville ran up and got it for me.When the movie was over  went to put it away but Gas grabbed it and did it for me.Every one wasn't treating me the same like I was a little dangly girl that couldn't do anything her self.They weren't treating me the same.Me and Bam never had prank wars anymore,we use to have them every day!Kayla will never let me cook any more...Ville gets every thing for me...its getting annoying.I think there treating me different couse I have liver problems.But why I mean im the same person.I don't act any different then I use too...do I?

 S got up and started breakfast.I hurried and ate then left the food out for Ville when he wakes up.I went out to the store to get some more milk and crap.I was walking into the frozen food section when my legs gave out.I fell to the ground,I herd my head smack onto the hard tile.I just couldn't move.I didn't know what was going on.The I saw blood coming from my head.I tried to yell or speak but I couldn't.I don't know what happened!

 When I went to check in they first had me do a doctors check up.They did the usual,made me pee in a cup blood tests...I rather not talk about that.As I waited I noticed a girl...she kept looking at me.She was about my age.She walked over and sat next to me."so why are you here?"She asked me with a shy tence voice."alcoholic...you?" I said ashamed."same here I just got out today...but I could not help but notice how sad you look."   "oh...well I have gone through allot,thank you."I turned my head in annoyance."oh...as have I,Im sorry I didn't mean to be..."  "its ok you meant nothing by it.My name is Vam."I help my hand out for a shake."Cloude"she smiled and shook my hand.We talk for awhile,then she had to leave,she gave me her phone# since we had so much in common it would be nice to hang out.I waited with Ville and Kayla...when the doctor came out his face did not look calm."Ma'am...when we tested your blood,we found out you have a problems with your liver."I felt my heart slide down my gut.I felt tears come but I held it back."we specifically did a blood test for something like this.Im very sorry." yeah right he wasn't sorry...I cloud tell in his voice it was not sad or not happy it had no emotions.I looked over at Ville and Kayla...they were crying.Why wasn't I...I felt like I had to but I just didn't.The doctor said he could get a transplant for me in a week or 2 depends how far away it is.

 Right when I got home I called cloude even though
I barley knew her I felt like I need to call her first."WHAT!! Wow! Im so, so sorry!I am going to be right over there what's you address?"  "696(hehe) soundgarden RD." what a cool address isn't it!He drove right over.She ran in and went right to my side.Right when she sat next to me I began to cry...it all came out.It was like I was waiting for her to let it all out.She listen every word,she helped me feel hope.I just met here and I feel like I have known her for years.The more I talked to her the more comfort I felt,till I was on the ground laughing till my gut bursts opened.She was telling me some random things and I just burst out laughing.When the phone wrung.Ville slowly handed it to me with a concerned look."hello?"  "Miss.Nina we have a liver for you! we will be able to do the surgery in 10 days." The nurse said on the other line.Some reason that did not give me any comfort.I told Ville he called Bam and Kayla they called every one else so the word was out and befor i knew it every one was over at my house.I introduced every one to cloude and they all instantly became friends with her.After awhile it became very silent,every one was just staring at the ground.When I saw VIlle...he had his head buried in a pillow,he turned his head and I saw little spots of tears.I guess he was crying...I went over to his side and whispered "I'm going to be alright.The nurse said I can have the surgery in 10 days,its all going to be ok." "I no,but what if its not!?what if some thing happens,WHAT IF YOU DIE!?" "then you will just have to get through life with out me,what ever happens we will get through." it seams like that's some thing he would say to me,instead of me saying it to him."well what if this next 10 days is the last i get to spend with you?"  "then we will have to make the best,even though its not going to be the last 10 days." Ville lifted his head up and lifted one eye brow."guys were going to need some time alone..." and he smiled evilly with shifty eyes.Every one has a smile across there face."so why don't we just have a bunch of fun these next 10 days"I said and jumped up and clapped my hands.

 That night we did every thing fun we could think of.We played games,watched movies,swam in the pool,went to Bams and Kaylas for hot tubbing every thing you could think of.We were having s much fun until...I snuck in the kitchen to get a drink of water,then there it was sitting there on the counter waiting for me to drink it.Was a beer.I slowly reached for it forgetting every thing that had happened that day,every thing around me revolved around that bottle of beer.I slowly grabbed it and opened it quickly.I typed it to my mouth,and let it slide down my throughout."VAM!!" Kayla walked in."huh,what!?" I was so surprised I forgot what I was doing.She grabbed the bottle and pored it down the drain,Cloude came in and shook her head.She walked into the bathroom.Every one else came in to dry off and get changed.When Ville saw the open bottle of beer he took my arm and pooled me in the living room."vam.what are you doing you said you would not drink any more?"  "why can't I just a little bit its not like I'm drinking every second of my life."  "Vam,can you at least wait until you get the transplant,you don't have to quite completely just like 2 a day or some thing." I sighed and then I agreed with him.I wanted that beer so badly!But I knew that's what they wanted for now,I don't know how long I can go with out it...wait I guess that means I am a hard alcholic then....WHAT!!??

     I woke up at about 2pm.I walked into the living room rubbing my eyes.As I looked up every one was staring at me."um what's going on?" every one was silent."well umm im going to get a beer..." I started to walk into the kitchen but got cut off."Vam we need to talk..."Kayla said with no emotion showing."um ok...about what?"  "you drinking problem.It becoming worse.You are even drinking more then Ville.It need to stop befor something happens,we know there is something wrong going on." my eyes went narrow."WHAT?!I don't have a drinking problem,nothings going on!IM FINE!" I yelled and stormed out the door.

      At first I didn't know were to go.Still I saw Zamoras.I quickly ran across the street in front of cars making them hit their brakes so fast you could here the rubber off the tiers skid across the pavement. .I could swore I herd people cussing at me.I quickly ran to the bar"give me anything strong" I said quickly and started banging softly on the counter.He handed me a drink and looked at me puzzled.I gulped it down then held it out for him to give me another.As I drank thoughts rushed through my mind.I could not fix my mind on one thing,until I remember what Kayla said...'I don't have a drinking problem...do I?'I thought to myself.'no,you don't they don't understand,they dont know what I have been through.?' I lied to myself it seamed to be working too.I drank my thoughts away,drank my problems away.

     When they cut me off,I walked to the store and got a case of beer,I drank it in the park.I was slammed.I pass a group off guys.Forgetting I was married and about my only love,I began to flirt with them,and play with them.I brushed up against one of them,when I heard"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!"it was Bam and Ville.Ville grabbed my arm.I pushed it off and yelled in there ears"GO AWAY!I DON'T NEED YOU!! LEAVE ME ALONE!"Bam grabbed me and threw me in the car.I struggled to get out then they pushed me back in.I forgot I could unlock the doors.I banged and screamed yelled hit punched kicked all the way home.When we got home I was pissed,I yelled at every one.I stumbled around the house trying to get to the cellar to get some wine.When Kayla fallowed me down and tried to keep me form drinking.I struggled for a bottle pushing her to the ground.She pushed me back and grabbed the bottle and threw it at the wall braking it.She grabbed another and threw it"VAM! I can't do this I don't want you to do this to yourself!!"  "IM NOT DOING ANY THING!YOU DON"T KNOW WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LET ME BE AT PEACE!"I grabbed a battle and tried to open it.She pushed me down."VAM!Don't do this you don't see what you are doing!You know what this stuff can do to you!You are going to kill your self,I don't want you to die,I don't want anything to happen to you!I care about you Vam we all do."I paused,suddenly it came clearer...I began to relies what I was doing.I drooped the bottle.I felt tears rushing down my face.I could not stop crying,I think it all got to me,it all caught up to me.At my father funeral I held my tears back.Ever since my father died I have held anger back held tears back.I tried to teach my self not to cry.But I guess when I was drunk it all came out non stop.Kayla helped me up the stairs.I saw Mige and Linde sitting next to Bam.Dico and Dunn.I felt ashamed,I tried to hide my face from every one.

       We talked for hours,it seamed like every one was crying or trying not too,except me.I don't know why I should be the only one crying but I wasn't.I hate to cry but some times its hard to hold it.When Ville said...he wants me to go to a rehab center.I didn't want to,but I knew its what he wanted.I didn't want to give up drinking,I just wanted to cut back on it.This all was happening to fast...I was really a hard drinker,I was really an alcoholic!I really had problems.What happened to that perfect little girl,that never did any thing wrong,played with dolls had tea parties with her girlfriends.Then played army,and super hero with her guy friends...what append to daddies lil girl!...She grew up,got into drugs and alchole...quite drugs after years of abuse then got married and became and alcholic!!! NO!!! I didn't want to be that...im not going to live to see my own child!I want to live and explore the world!!!Not if im going this!I need to stop...or at least cut back.

 I woke up in the middle of the night to my heavy breathing and damp hot face.I turned to my side looking out our bay window,with the moon staining back at me.I got up and slipped my red silk robe on and walked into the kitchen stepping on the cold hard tile.I reached into the fridge to get a nice cold beer,when my mother and father rushed through my mind.I leaned agents the counter as I thought of them.My eyes suddenly ran to the calender and I saw that it was the day the adopted me.I went into the living room and streched out on our soft black velvet couch.I laid there for a second then herd Ville voice"hey Vam you ok?" I eminently sprang up."oh yeah,I'm fine just having trouble sleeping"  "oh...well..I'm gonna go back to bed,how about you?" he said as he yawned like a lion."hm..I'll try I guess."I said and walked in with him.He instantly fell back asleep,but I...laid there again.I struggled to find a comfortable place.I flopted on my back then my side and to my stomic and all.I staired strate up at the ceeling.Thinking of my parents,and then my birth parents,my brother jake.The past memeries of my home befor I was adopted...how they treated me and Jake.Just thinking about it made me saddened but full of rage.Hours went by and I still could not sleep.So I decided to get up and take a shower.I let the hot water run across my body like a water fall.I standed leting run across me for what seamed like hours.I got out and dried my body and instently raped my slef around my robe.I didn't bother with make up or cantacts.I just wore my glasses,I brushed my hair out and put it up out of the way.I went down staires into the celler and opend a bottle of red wine,and sat out on our up staired porch.The sun was just about to rise,it was beautiful.Rays of the sun shot through the cloudes like angels falling from the hevans.I grew into a trance of the beautiy,my eyes wide,a smile across my face.I haven't seen the sun rise for so long,usualy i'm sleeping of a hang over or I went to bed at 4 am and woke up at 3 pm.I was hit into reality from the sound of the fromt door flying open.

 " oh hey guys." I said walking in.It was Kayla and Bam with Dunn fallowing behind them."hey love" Kayla said and gave me a hug."hey Dunn hows it going?"I said and gave him a peck on the cheek."well..its going,at least."he said lighting a ciggy."you guys are here early." Ville said walking in and rubbing his eyes."oh yeah,well the dogs went crazy at the paper boy and woke us up,so we figured to go here even if you wern't up"  "well thats nice to know were the head house."  "haha yeah and Aishya and Jussi  want some "ALONE TIME" Bam said evening making the quote marks."oohh I see!" Dunn walked into the bathroom and Ville suddenly turned to me"Vam hunny how bout you out a little more clothes on..." he said and he kiss my cheeke."why?" "well um Dunn just broke up with Katie and he is probley looking for more then friendship with girls right now....and well...you know" he said making his eye grow wide."oohh yeah...I'll be right back"I said and darted into the bedroom.I threw on the closest clothes to me.I hurried to the frdge to get another beer,as I tiped it to my mouth Ville stoped me."its to early,you have had to much this morning."and he grabbed the bottle from my hand.My eyes narrowed and I grabbed it back and gulped it down."babe..."  "you are telling me to stop drinking!? Who is the king of alchole here!? You drink way more then me EVEN BAM!! Mayba even more then me and him put together! and you are telling me to stop,its to early...that i've had enough!!"I yelled out...why was he telling ME I should be telling him and when I do he never listens...he doesn't have any buissness to tell me to stop..its to early...I had to much.I stormed into the living room.Every ones eyes fixed on me and the bottle of beer in my hand.Ville walked in slowly and sat next to Bam."Vam...don't you think you have had enough this morining?"Kayla said with Villes same idea."I don't need this!I don't need you telling me what to do! telling me when I have had enough!I don't meed any of yu right now,espeshly today I DON"T NEED THIS BULL SHIT I HAVE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH OF IT!!" I screamed and ran out the door.I drove to the nearest bar.I drank and I drank"hey there little lady I need to cut you off there...you have had to much.Its not even noone yet."the bar tender said and gave me the bill.I was to tiered and drunk to even bother getting mad.I took out a 50 dallor bill and gave it to him"kee...keep the change Mr."I slured.I stumbled down the streat forgeting I had a car good thing to should neveDRINK  and DRIVE.I triped over a rock and passes out on the curb.Next thing I knew was I woke up in a police car.

 "you got one call!" I called Villes cell"Ville baby,come get me out of jell...it horable here they make you eat poop!"I was still drunk."JELL!"I herd Kayla yell in the background."ok we..we will be right there hold on." he hanged up the phone but I didn;t relise it "hello ? HELLOOOO?!hmmm bastard."I said and hanged the phone up well I tried to I missed the recerver.Finaly Ville and Kalya came and picked me up."Vam!WHat the hell do you think you're doing!" Ville said as he drove me back home."uumm....I'm breathing!Thats what I think."  "uuggghhh!"Ville grouned.He carried me back to bed and i slept the rest of the day.

 He froze.He didn't talk at all,all he did was hang up the phone then sat down,didn't even say anything."what's wrong."Kayla said puzzled with a fake expression on her face.Ville shot back into reality,and looked up slowly."some one broke in to my lair." every ones mouth droped and you could see there dazling white fangs,with there eyes wide and full of shock."we better go then."Bam said grabbing Kaylas arm."yeah we better get down there and see what happened." Vam said holding her hand out to Ville.He grabbed it and she pulled him up.They ran quickly to Bams car.They got there in about 5 min.Ville flew through the door.His eyes grew wide at the sight of his home,it was trashed.Books every ware chairs and tables tipped over.Pages ripped out of his note books,peaces of broken glass on the cold hard ground.Ville steped in ,with the sound of glass crushing under his shoes.He looked around then looked up at Bam.His eyes were stunned at the sight.Ville looked back down then he quickly sprung his head back up.He looked around then ran into his bedroom.He shot open drawers,and threw his pillows up running his eyes across the room.His eyes scarce,"oh no.oh no.SHIT!!"he said as he banged his head and his fists on the soft bed."what happed."Bam said as he walked in.Ville looked up,"they took it,they took it all.They took my notes,my songs,my poems,my addresses,my numbers,my journals,my money.It all was in that, ALL of it!!."he said full of rage and anger...and still the sound of worry."it all was in that black box.All of it and now its gone...did you notice they didn't take any thing else...but that"  Bams face went narrow."so..that means." "that means they have your number your address...they have Vams and Kaylas,Hexina, Lolinds, and Victorias "Ville said and got up from his knees." as Vam and Kayla came in."Ville,im..so ..sorry."Vam said with pity."don't be you did nothing....and I do think I know who it is.""I know..but I still can be sorry...I don't want things like this to happen to people I...love."she smiled as she said love.Ville looked up.He looked down and blushed.Bam looked at Kayla and raised his eyes brows.

 Lolind and Hexina came in.When Hexina saw Vam and Ville together her eyes fell and she looked away every ware but in there derction."man Ville im so sorry..I don't know what I can do." Lolind said and sat next to Vam eye balling here and she scooted into Ville more feeling uncomfortable and unsettle with Lolind looking at her like that.Ville put his arm around her.He looked at Lolind and cleared his voice,"um...Lolind can you kinda back off." "oh um...sorry."he said and took one more look at Vam as he got up and sat next to Hexina."so what are we going to do about this?"Victoria said breaking silence,"well we got to figure out who it is first."Hexina replied."Well I kinda think we all know who it probley is."Ville said raising an eye brow."why would she do it though...do you think she is planning on doing something to us?" Lolind said with a scared shake in his voice."well she did take my addresses."Ville said as he swayed his head in Lolind direction."well what should we do about it then?"Kayla said with her face crunched."maybe we should go out of down?" Lolind suggested."hm...but what if she goes through our houses."Hexina said looking around. " well we should be together so nothing happens to any one.Like every one need at least one person with them at all times."Ville said strongly."I don't want any thing to happen to any one."his voice softened."well were are we all going to stay?" Kayla said looking at every one with her shoulders shrugged."what about...well who has the most space." every one looked at Bam."what..."

 "man why does every one have to be at my place?"he wined to Kayla."Bam,you got the biggest place,and probley the safest since you have other all those locked and chaines and a big gate!"  "...fine but im not buying the beer..or blood" he said shaking his head."why..?"Vam said looking up."you people drink so much we have to get another pack ever hour." "so...Ill help...here i have a dollar buy the good stuff." "ooh yeah a dollar ppsshh that really helps!"he said throwing his arms up with the dollar in his hand.Then he stuffed it into his pocket.They got to his place and spread out in his house."BAM!! Wheres your vodka and fresh blood!?"Vam yelled as she raid through his fridge.He walked over and pushed her aside then quickly grabbed a bottle of vodka and a black bottle of blood and handed it to her with a blank face,"oh thank you love."she said with a big grin on her face."hey were out of beer...im going to get some more." Vam said reaching in the empty budwizer box."ok be careful."Kayla said as Vam went out the door.she drove off when Ville remembered."shit she isn't suppose to go alone."he got up and called her cell phone.It wrung once and he heard the tune of her ringtone play on the table."eh,shell be ok what are the chances." he said and shrugged it off.An half an hours whent by and she wasn't back,soon and hour then 2."guys Ism worried about Vam she has been gone awhile..."Kayla said with a scared worry look in here eyes."yeah me too.Should we go look for her?"Victoria said worriedly too."yeah we-" Lolind started but then Vams phone began to wring.Ville jumped up and grabbed it."hello!?"he yelled in hopes it was Vam on the other line."hello hehe."Damilya hissed.Villes eyes narrowed and his eyes began to fill with rage."what the fuck have you done with Vam!?"He yelled with rage as he herd Vam screame that was full of pain and hurt."oh don't worry about you little girl friend here she is safe with me.Just trying to keep Rathe off of her is the problem."she said as she giggled."leave her alone she did nothing don't bring her into this!"  "oh she is in it now haha,you know what I'm going to do with her...the same thing I did with you but this time I'll actually get to do it with out any one stopping me!!"said laughed like a witch then hanged up.Every one was on there feet.Villes eyes were full of fear and hate."we got to go NOW!"

sorry if i the spelling is bad...i cant remeber if i did spell check or not

well hope you like it

luv all

vam -brooke

Ville woke up,plopped down on his big red velvet chair.He sat there looking out the bay window,just thinking.His cell phone started to ring.It was Bam."hello?" "yo,hurry up are you ready yet?"Bam said rushing him."for what..?" "for your DATE!!with Vam and us.." "oh yeah shit I totally forgot!!!"he didnt even bother to say good-bye he hanged up the phone and rushed into the bathroom.Lolind came in while he was shaving."hey,Victoria and Hexina are here..."he said scratching his ass with a cup of coffee in hand."what why are they here?"he said glaring down the hall."well Victoria has no prob with you going on a date she is happy so she wanted to help you know what to say and well she just dragged Hexina on with her." "what I dont need any help at all I know what to say I've been on a date plenty of times"he said strongly and defensively."tell her that,not me."he said and walked out of the room.Ville walked out were every one else was."why is every one here ,its not like I haven't been on a date before..."he said lifting one eye brow."hehe yeah I know...but what Bam told me I wanted to make sure you don't screw this one up"Vicotria said smiling."uugghh...."Ville grounded at her."ok you know what to do then...always get her every thing she should never have to get up...if you see a rose pick it and give it her...don't look at  other girls while your there'' "or guys.."Hexina said blowing her lips like a horse."um yeah...and always open the door for her and pull her chair out and-" "yeah I know what to do."Ville said cutting her off.

 Bam called and said he was out side waiting for him.Ville got up and left...while Victoria was trying to make sure he looked nice."man..glad you cam they were driving me insane!"Ville said getting in."ok we just have to get the girls now." While they were driving Ville noticed a car always behind them."hey Bam,did you notice that car behind us?"he said looking back nervously.Bam looked in his rear view marrow..."oh yeah I kinda did but didn't really pay attention to it..most likely just going the same way we are." Bam said shrugging it off."yeah I guess so."Ville said still a little nervous.They got to the girls lair and honked the horn.Vam came running out..."wow that was loud haha."she said putting her finger in hear ear."Kayla will be out in a sec. she umm...well im not sure but its taking a long time.Man I was done like 30 min. ago haha she is still not done"she said laughing.''ill go help her then."Bam said and went in to help Kayla.It was Ville and Vam alone in the car. "so...is it just me or does Hexina seam mad at me?"Vam said trying to start a conversation."ah well I have no idea...shes not mad at you she is mad at me." "oh couse we have been friends in college ana all..."she said looking down."oh I didn't know you knew her befor..." "oh yeah and Victoria and Lolind.I herd them talk about you befor but I never met you till yesterday."she said lifting her eyes from the ground."oh wow they never mentioned you befor.Now I wish they did." Ville said smiling into her eyes."haha yeah so do I."she said and smiled back.Ville looked out side and noticed the same car parked around the corner.He didn't want to mention it to Vam or Kayla so he ignored it.

 Bam came out with Kayla holding onto his arm."man I don't know why it took so long haha we're not waring any thing special."Kayla said getting in.She was right Vam, was warring some ripped jeans and a black tank top,Kayla was warring black pants with cuts across the pockets and knees with a red t-shirt with a skull on it.The boys had a blazer on and a pare of jeans on.Ville and Vam were talking and getting to know each other as they drove to the restraint.Bam kept looking in his back marrow."you ok hun?You keeping looking behind us..."Kayla said worriedly to Bam."oh yeah im fine...nothing wrong behind us." that made Kayla keep looking behind.They reached the restraint.It was a vamp. restraint so they didn't have to worry bout not showing there fangs or he bright lights.Bam walked in holding the door behinds him till kayla got there then let it go and it hit her on the side.Ville grabbed it and held it for Kayla to finish entering the room and then for vam then closed it behind him."thank you Ville that was so sweet."Kayla said glaring at Bam,he just shrugged his shoulders.The hostes showed them to there table and bam sat down and Kayla did after,Vam began to but Ville stopped her and pulled her chair out for her.Kayla opened her mouth and glared strongly at Bam.They looked over the menus and then a waiter came and took there orders."and to drink ma'am." um berbin with young blood in it please."Vam said."um I'll have the same please"Kayla said."um ill just have blood any kind I dont care."Bam said"wow that's a first."Kayla said sarcasticly.Bam shook his head.They all were talking and all when a man came.They were having a great time so they wanted to go see a movie,when they got up another person fallowed them right behind them.They drove to the theater,"hey what movie should we watch?"Bam said looking at the selections."how bout the omen?"Kayla asked."Na ,I went to see that with Bob last week,but if you guys haven't seen it then alright."vam said,Ville looked down,"its her brother man."Bam said smirking.Vam giggled a little."oh..." they went in and sat down.Some one sat down behind them it kind of looked like the same person at the restraint.The girls didn't seam to notice.Ville put his arm on the arm rest not knowing Vams was already there,he jerked it up as he touched her cold soft hands.She grabbed his back and held it tight,the warmth in his hands began to flow into hers.She laid her head onto his chest,and smiled a smile that could kill all evil.He looked back and that person was staring at him and Vam when he looked at him/her they looked away trying to act casual.Kayla was tight into Bams arms holding onto him as they watch the screen.Her head buried into him as a jumpy part came open.The movie came to an end.they walked out holding onto each other."hey lets go to Jumbo Juice?" Bam said jumping up as they passed it."oh yeah I haven't been there for ever!"vam said jumping up too(people would think they should be together couse there personalty is almost the same.)They got there drinks and walked around the dark murky vamp. mall they were at.When Villes phone wrung."Ville some one broke into your house!!!"

hope you like this one hehe the next one should be good...i hope hehe im working in it now!!

ha love you guys

vam-brooke

the lost part of cross my heart.

 
 I walked down the road with Kayla.We were walking to Villes place.Every one was already there when we got there."hey guys!"me and Kayla said as we walked in."hey Vam,hey Kayla.Ville said handing us a drink.I sat in the big soft chair by the T.V. Ville being himself of course jumped right on me.bam lifted his eyes brows up and down at Jussi."So what do you guys want to do today?"Aishya asked."oh,i dont know ...a movie?" Kayla suggested."nah,we have seen probley every movie they have out."Bam groaned."well then..what do you want to do?"kayla said addressing Bam."man I dont know why dont we just hang here?" "no,its to boring here."Ville said."why don we go to Zamoras and decide there..."I suggested."sure" "ok" "I need a beer." they all said.So we went down and talked it all out.I looked at Ville and he smiled and started to blush.I giggled a little and smiled back.Bam looked at Jussi and Aishya looked at Kayla.Then Bam whispered some thing to Jussi,I didn't no what though."hey,i have an idea lets go to the mall."Kayla suddenly said."no we went there yesterday!"I groaned."yeah and besides what are we going to do there any ways?''Bam said.Kayla shrugged her shoulders.''then what the hell are we going to DO!!!"Aishya said throwing her hands up."now,now dont go Don Vito on us here."Bam said laughing.And did that make Aishya break down."WHAT!!your calling me fat!!!How could you!Do I look fat Vam?"she had a total melt down."um,nah,...you look great!Bam how could you say that."I said trying to stay on Aishyas good side.Bam glared at me he knew I was lying haha really honestly she looked kinda wasted like she had not slept for days probley couse she had 1 to many beers."but..you...you...UUUGGHHH!!!" "you'll pay for this Vam." he said staring at me evilly."what the hell did I do?"  Aishya looked at me.I shrugged my shoulders."tell you later..."Bam said holding back he knew if he said that i was lying that Aishya would totally blow...but then I would get him back so BAD haha.

 Well we couldn't fined anything to do so we went to mine and Kaylas place.Aishya was totally wasted...she was throwing up and I had to hold her hair since it was my turn to help the drunk one.During that time she said who knows what.All I got was Jussi Bam and Kayla."I love you vam"she slurred"your like a brother to me man!!"she said and grabbed on to me."and kayla,and bam Ville and Jussi are like sisters to me.I love you guys!!I sat down in the middle of the flour.I was exosted from helping Aishya out.After awhile my phone wrong."Nina..." A small unclear voice said."um..yes..who is this." "I...I...need your help." "who is this."I looked at Kayla every one was fixed on me as I spoke."its me,Jake."I dropped the phone...it was my brother...that I hadn't spoken to since I was about 3 or 4."what's wrong what do you need..."I picked the phone up and asked."Nina...Im dieing...I need you here by my said...you are the only family I got left.I don't want to die alone!" "what...you are dieing...ware are you?" he told me the hospitable he was at I ran out the door not eve informing every one else what was going on and what I was doing ot ware I was going.I drove quickly to the hospitable.I think my phone wrong a few times but I didn't answer.A nurse showed me to his room."Jake...are you ok?"I asked as  sat down next to him.I grabbed his hand and he opened his eyes slowly."Nina you came,I didn't know who else to call." "Jake I haven't talked to you in 17 years or so." "yes I know,I ...I never called befor couse I was scared...that you would not love me...or except me since...well our family what we did to you." "Jake I am your sister it was never your fault that the past had happened,no matter what im here for you.NO matter what."i said and smiled sweetly."Nina...thank you." "please call me Vam."I said,his face scrunched up."VAM!Haha were did you get that name." "its a long storey."I shook my head.It was silent for a moment."how much longer do you have?" he froze for a second."oh...not to long,I think.Im not sure,I don't think I really want to know." We talked for awhile and the nurse said I had to leave.

I went back home and every one was still there jus as I had left them."were the hell have you been?"Bam said as I walked in."Jake is dieing."I bowed my head in sadness."your brother Jake?"Ville said getting up."yes"I said and I started to hold tears back. sat down end buried my head into a billow.Ville came over and sat next to me,"I don't get it he has never been there for you he has never talked to you why now,If I were you I would never have gone."Bam said shaking his head.I lifter my head up and my eyes were narrowed and full of horar,"he is my brother,I am always going to be there for him not matter what,no one deserves to die alone and not loved.He is my family he was the only one that had treated me right,I am always there for him no matter what."I got up and stormed into my bedroom.Kayla smacked Bam across the face and left a red hand prink across his face.Ville and Kayla ran in after me."its ok we will go tomorrow and see him ok."Kayla said as I cried.Ville put his arms around me."go ahead...cry...it will help." I shook my head no,I don't cry.i got up and went into the bathroom,then I walked out into the kitchen.

 It was late every one left.I went to bed early to I could wake up and go see Jake.I got up and left.I got to the hospitable."Hello,I am hear to see Jake Wilson." the front desk man eyes sunk and his face turned cold,"he has passed,last night.I am sorry there was nothing they could do.I shook my head,I ran out to my car.I sat in it and cried...cried and cried.I started home my eyes were blurred with tears as I drove.i got home and fell onto the couch.Every one was over"what's wrong..."I looked up and they saw my red burning eyes of tears full of sorrow,"oh...he..."Jussi said and his eyes sank.Ville sat e next to me.I smiled at him."well why don't we forget all this and watch a movie"Bam asked."oh yes I need that."I said,as I walked past Ville I smiled at him softy.Bam looked at Jussi and Jussi at him they raised there eyes brows at each other."ille get popcorn."I said"ill get some drinks and all'Jussi said and we went into the kitchen.''whats with you and Ville?"he asked smirking."oh' we are just good friends...well its not how I would like it to be its just..well..."I said scattered"aahhh haa I knew it, I knew you guys had a thing for each other!!" he said kinda loud.''shut up! yes ok I like him...ALOT but there is no reason to blurt it out." "oh yes there is,seams to me he likes ya back."he said and smiled then walked out into the other room.

hope you liked this...no we are the damned is not over yet but might be soon i just did this for fun =Dso hope you liked it

luv you

vam-brooke

 They rushed Bam down to Villes lair.Villes eyes were still full of guilt and tears."dont worry Ville he is going to be fine,Hexina is a expert at this kind of stuff remember."Victoria said  sitting down next to Ville."every one has to get out of the room,I need it dark and clear."Hexina said pushing them out of the room."Ville,are you ok..."Lolind said looking at him worriedly."I dont know,I..I...was blind sighted,I should of sense that she was bad...but she was just so....so..."  "hot...sexy"Lolind answered for him."well...yeah." "it wasn't you fault you should not feel guilty about this."Victoria said putting her arms around him.He pushed her away and turned his head away."it was my fault,I should of told him before,I should of not been so blind sighted,I should of told him to look out sooner,I should of never gotin him into this before..." he said sadly holding tears back."Ville,there was nothing you could do its not your fault...it never will be....Bam will understand dont worry."Victoria said lifting his chin up.Ville got up and left the room.Victoria got up but Lolind stopped her"let him be to his thoughts."

 hexina came out."I stopped the bleeding but he is going to change we cant stop him from changing now,there is nothing we can do."  "well is he ok?"Lolind asked."yeah he is fine..the only problem is he wants a beer"she said with a wide smirk across her face.Bam walked out and gave Hexina a kiss of thanks."were is Ville?"he asked looking around.

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 Ville was at a club,sitting alone.When a young girl sat next to him."yeah,um ill like Desarona vodka"she said another girl sat next to her''ill have the same please."she said then glanced at Ville.Her eyes shined even though there was no light.The girl whispered some thing to her friend and she looked back at Ville.She smiled."hey what's your name?"the girl next to him asked."oh...um."they giggled a little."its Ville."he said blushing."im Kayla,this is my friend Vam."she said introducing them selfs.Kayla was tall and dark but strikenling beautiful,with dark black eyes and a smile to die for.Vam a bit shorter,and as beautiful as Kayla.she had green eyes that changed in different lighting,but yet she look sad on the inside."so you look a bit sad is any thing wrong."Vam asked him and got him a drink.He felt like he could really trust then he senses goodness and high power in them.he told them the whole story.He tried not to cry but it just came out."WHAT, BAM!!!"Kayla screamed,she started to cry Vam rushed to her side and held her trying to comfort her.Ville eyes were shocked and puzzled."what's wrong." "Bam is her boyfriend,"Vam said as she cried on her shoulder,"oh..I did not know that."
foolishly Ville asked,''so do you have a boyfriend?"Vams eyes sunck."wait I didnt mean that ,well I did just not at the moment."Ville said rushing.Kayla lifted her head up and smiled then let out a small giggle."but is he going to be ok."her face went stern."I dont know yet I left and came here."we need to go I got to find out." "ill call them ok just hold on."he grabbed his cell phone out and called Lolind,he told Ville that he was fine but he still was going to change,and that they were going to go to a club.Ville told Kayla that and she jumped up and smiled a smile for the angels.They went to the club that Ville was at.Bam ran in and picked kayla up and swung her around.He dropped her on a couch and went to Ville,he punched him on the shoulder playfully."aw man why do you feel so bad...kayla was going to turn me anyway haha forgot to tell you guys that."he said smirking.Ville looked at Vam and she smiled at him,Bam looked at them and smiled,"so you like her huh" "yeah,I barley know her and I feel this strong connection with her." Bam nodded he walked over to her"wait Bam what are you doing."Ville said trying to stop him."shut up ,it will work trust me.." "the last time you did that I ended up in jail." Bam ignored him.Him and Vam talked awhile and he came back and sat down.He lifted his eye brows up and down."what did you say and what did she say back?"Ville said anxiously"I told her what you said." "what in the hell would you do that for."  "dude,she said she felt exactly the same,she wants to get to know you, so me you and Kayla and Vam are going out tomorrow."he said biting his lips with a smile.

 The night was leaving so they had to leave."hey Bam want to crash out at my place?" ville offered."na im going to stay with Kayla and Vam"he said and put his arm around Kayla."bye guys." "hey Ville can I crash at yours Hexina is really bitchy right now?"Lolind said and Hexina flipped him off."yeah you can,why is she bitchy?"  "Ill tell you when we get to your place"he said nervously.
they got to Villes and Lolind sat down."she is mad chouse she herd that you like that hot chick named V..Vam I think."he said"why does she care?"he said poring some drinks."I dont know she doesnt have intumit feeling for you,I guess since you use to really like her allot then it just didnt work out,then now you have moved on I guess she is jealous now."he said grabbing a glass."I dont get that she was the one who said it wouldn't work out between us,she is the one who left me cold,and I still treat her like a friend..."Ville said annoyed at her."yeah well you can never tell with her."he said swishing the blood mixed with red wine in his glass.They went to sleep after the finished there drinks.

so there is my next part there is probley onley going to be 2 or 3 more of these since im going back to cross my heart!!YAY!!thank you fo all your suport hope you like it!!

"Shit man what are we going to do!?" Lolind yelled. "I don't know man, I might be able to pick the lock here...." "With what your teeth?" Lolind asked sarcastically. "Well what else do you want me to do?" Ville argued. "GET ME OUT OF HERE!'' "Well I cant, and can you shut up while I think, you don't need to yell! That will bring her right back over here and... make us her... sex ... toys." he shivered at the thought. "Well you can’t just expect me to sit here and do nothing!" Lolind yelled. "Yes I can, just for now try think of a way for us to get out… ok? Can you handle that?" he tried to settle him down, it seamed to work. They couldn’t think of a way to get out, and if they didn't soon... they would be a toy.

*Victoria and Hexina*

"Victoria have you seen Lolind?!" Hexina said breaking in through the door. "What... no I haven't." she said wide eye as she didn't expect her do run down the door like that. "Aw man...he wasn't home when I got there and he wasn't there when I woke up this night." She said pushin loose strands of her hair back. "Hmm maybe he crashed out at Ville’s place..." "oh yeah he probably did, now I feel like a fool worrying like that" she said with a smirk on here face. "Ok I’ll call him." Victoria dialed his number...waited but no answer. "Maybe they’re still asleep, let’s go over there and wake him up." she said without worry. They walked over to Ville lair, but no one was there. "Where are they, oh no I can sense something bad here..." Hexina said worriedly with watery eyes. "I’ll call his cell  phone,” Victoria said putting her hand on her shoulder. The phone kept ringing, until she herd the answeing machine. "Hello angels, this is Ville’s phone he is not going to be able to talk now he is either in his little cage or in bed with me and Rathe, so don't bother calling any more goodbye," and then they hung up. It was Damilya you could tell by her little giggle at the end of the call. "Oh fucking SHIT!" Victoria said after she hung up. "What? Did they answer? What's going on?" Hexina said quickly, barley comprehendable. "Do you remember Lolind saying any thing about a girl and Ville?" she said putting her hands and Hexina shoulders pushing her against the wall. "Umm...I don’t know...wait yes I do a girl named Dermal or Damilya or something, he said that Ville had a run with her like he did." She said wide-eyed. "Yes, now we need to find were she lives... I know… Bam! He knows this kind of stuff." "Wait, but he doesn’t know yet," Hexina said biting her bottom lip. "Well he is going to have to some time right? Now lets go..."

They hurried over to Bam’s place. "Bam! Bam!" Victoria yelled busting down his door. "What the hell..." Bam said walking in. "DO YOU KNOW WHO DAMILYA IS!" Hexina demanded "Damilya ... Damilya... oh yeah I know, why?" he said thinking to himself. "We think she might have Ville and Lolind" "Oh fuck no....not Damilya she’s bad news...." He said shaking his head nervously. "Do you know were she lives?" "Yeah..." “Then let’s go!"

*Ville and Lolind*

"Man I didn't want to go like this, not as a sex toy and without my dignity!" Lolind said starting to tear up. "We’re not going to die we’re go to find a way put of this." Ville said hold his own tears back. "How do you know? What if we don’t? What if we’re there sex slaves for the rest of our lives! I don’t want that Rathe guy on me... that's just nasty... I’ll be scared for life!" "Shut up! Were not going to! We’ll get out of here no matter what, OK?" Ville said trying to keep Lolind and himself sane and full of hope. They laid in the cold dark cages, still hungry, longing for blood, smelling the sickly sweet torture in the air.

Suddenly the door slammed down. "Ville, Lolind are you here!?" Bam yelled into the empty room, his echo answered back. "We're in the cages get us out of here!" Lolind screamed at the top of his lungs. They ran over threw the black silk covers off of the cages. "We’ll get you out just hold on." Hexina said putting her hand through Lolinds cage reaching for his hand. Bam was trying to find away to get them out "Bam, LOOK OUT!" Ville screamed when Damilya came from behind him and bit Bam's neck. Ville could smell the sent of Bam's blood dripping out of him...he didn't want that to happen he wanted Bam to be the only human one a normal person. Bam fell to the ground and Hexina ran to his side. Victoria’s eyes were glaring at Damilya first of shock, then anger. Her eyes narrowed as she heard Damilya giggling. She ran and kicked her in the stomach causing her to fly back. Damilya slowly got back up holding her gut. "Oh what the-" Victoria punched her in the jaw making her fliped back. Victoria’s eyes were filled with blazing fire as she watch Damilya struggle to get away. She grabbed her by the hair and pulled her back, she tripped her to the ground and kicked her face like a soccer ball (football). Damilya’s face bled from every opening, her eyes were swelling up...and were full of tears, "and you should of thought about that before you messed with my friends bitch” she said and pushed her into the red fountain. She got they keys out of her pocket and unlocked Ville and Lolind. "Bam!" Ville ran and rushed to him with Lolind right behind him..."Bam I meant to tell you before…" he was holding tears back and his voice was shaking with fright. "But... its to late I didn't want you to turn into us. I didn't want it to be this way!" his voice was shaking. "Hurry we got to take him to your place Ville," Victoria said pushing him back to they could pick him up. "Ville... I’m going to be ok don’t worry about it, I don’t care what you are. You knew that I could already tell you were one," Bam said holding his neck and acting as if nothing had happed to him.

     Ville lay in his coffin thinking about Damilya. ‘How did she really know his name? Why did she have sex with Lolind and me? It just is kind of weird. And what are those cages really for?’ were some of the thoughts that floated around his head before he fell asleep. He was having a good dream when he heard a ringing sound. After opening his eyes he realized it was his phone. "Hello..." he said groggy. "Um… Ville, what are ya’ up to? We are going to go for a kill you want to come? You didn’t last night, you must be so out of it," it was Victoria, you could hear Lolind and Hexina arguing in the background. "Oh, yeah I’m craving fresh young blood, how about you guys?" his blood rose and rushed at the thought. "Hmm no, I’m thinking middle age and experience." Victoria disagreed. "Well, what ever as long as I get some." "Yeah I guess, well hurry over. You know Lolind; he gets violent with out a good kill in the beginning of night. "In the background of the call Ville could hear Lolind yell ‘Do not!’ but it was faint and hardly audible. "Ok I’ll be there in a second. Bye," he said and hung up the phone, but Damilya was still on his mind. He hurried over and turned the knob to Victoria’s place but it was locked, he knocked on the door. Nobody answered, just as he was to turn the knob again Lolind jumped out and pushed Ville to the ground. "God! What’s your problem?!" Ville yelled rubbing his shoulder. "I told you he gets violent...” Victoria said with a sigh, "NO I DON’T!" Lolind yelled defensively. "Yeah yeah, come on lets go," Hexina urged them.

     They walked around for awhile looking for someone. They finally spotted a man in an ally taking some trash out. "Hehe, I can take care of this, just wait for my sign,” she said evilly. She walked slowly appearing out from the mist, "hey, big boy" she said pushing her hand on the wall behind him, she had him cornered. "Uh aha," the man said smiling. Hexina touched her lip, "hmm, how about we have a little fun?" she said as she pushed her body against his and stared him in the eyes. She looked at his neck watching the veins pumping, raising. She touched a vain that was popping out and pushed it in. She quickly slashed in with her long sharp silver nail. The man jumped and held his neck; Hexina smiled letting her fangs show. "What the..." the man started and Lolind came out, behind was Victoria. Ville jumped in, they all surrounded the man. Watching the blood from his neck drip and flow down his body in a continuous line. Hexina push him down and held him to the ground, Ville took the first bite. Lolind push him away and drank as much as he could before Victoria slapped him, "save some for the rest of us why don’t you..." "yeah man don’t be such a cow..." Hexina said and pushed him aside.

     They went back to Victoria’s’ place. "Hey Ville, why did you call me about Damilya last night?" Lolind said while the girls were out of the room. "Oh I was just seeing if you knew who she was.”  "Oh ok..." the night went on. "Hey I’m going to go I’m getting tiered, bye guys." Ville said getting up, "yeah me too. See ya’ guys." Lolind said. "Ill be home later, ok?" Hexina said to Lolind, "yeah, bye." Ville and him walked out and parted after saying their good-byes. He walked down the street and heard a high pitched girly laugh, it sounded familiar. "Hey there babe," it was Damilya. "Oh, hi" She took him to her castle. "Come on lets go to my room again." She said and dragged him along. "Uh ok." she pushed him down to her bed. "How bout a drink?" she said smiling, "oh yes please.” She left the room for awhile then she came back with a golden tray that had two drinks on it. "Here is your special, hehe." she said and gave him a drink. He drank it fast, "WOW, that was..." and he dozed out before he could finish his thought.

     He woke up and it was dark. He tried to get up but hit his head on some metal bar. "What the hell..." he said looking around but couldn’t see anything, he heard a noise, it sounded like some one trying to speak or something, "Who’s there..." "hmmm, umm, ah, help me, help me!" it sounded like... "LOLIND! Is that you?" "Yeah who are you, are you the one who did this to me?!" he demanded, "No its me, Ville. Where are we?"  "I don’t know, but the do you smell vanilla? DAMILYA!!” “Vanilla...? Hey yeah I do...wait vanilla? ...Wait ...DAMILYA?" "Oh yeah, she was the last person I was with" They heard the clicking of high heels on the tile. "Awake already...hmmm I’ll need stronger tranquilizers next time." Damilya said turning on a lantern and revealing her face from the darkness. "WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE?!" Lolind screamed shaking the bars of his cage. Damilya just let out an evil chuckle "you are going to be my TOY!" she said pinching his cheeks. "Toys..." Ville said swallowing a big gulp. "Haha yes, my toys. You see with this special drug,” she said holding a flask with a white liquid in it. "I can make you so limp that you can’t movie on your own. Oh you will still be awake just you cant do anything. I can do anything with you, you can be my sex toy with Rathe." a man walked up behind her and put his arms around her waist and gently kissed her on her neck, it was the same man Ville saw at the meeting that took her away. "You bitch, you will never get away with this, we will escape and tell all the vampires about you and you will be given to the light." Lolind threatened as he yelled out and they walked away into another room. "Hey, I brought my cell phone, I can just called Victoria and Hexina and they get the vampire police." He reached into his coat pocket. "DAMN IT! She took it, err" Ville yelled in frustration when he felt nothing in his pocket. "What are we going to do, I don’t want to be a sex toy, well at least not with that guy Rathe or whatever...I’m to old to be molested by a guy!"

hope you like this one hopefully next one will be out soon!=D

thank you so much to cloude!!!!for helping me with this luv ya cloude!=D

luv Vam

The next night, Victoria woke up to the smell of a sickly sweet odar in the air. She walked over to Villes' lair and knocked on his coffin. "Ville, get up." she yelled at him smelling the lushious sent in the air. "Do you smell that?" she said waving her head left and right. Ville took in a deep breath of the air. "Uh-huh, hmmm wow that...that smells fresh too." he said closing his eyes. "Yeah, let’s go get Hexina and Lolind." she said helping him out of his coffin. They started to walk down to Hexina and Lolinds place. Still smelling the fresh bloodshed in the air; they walk quietly. "So how are you going to tell Bam?" Victoria said out of no were. "Oh, I don’t know yet." Ville said softly biting his top lip. "Well you have to tell him some time." "Yeah, yeah I know." They reached their lair and knocked loudly on their Chamber door. Hexina opened up with Lolind behind them "do you smell that blood?" Hexina asked peeking out. "You smell it too?" Ville said pushing the door opened. "Yeah we do, wonder were it is coming from?" she said motioning them to come in. Lolind jumped around on one foot putting his tight leather pants on. "We better get going, the meeting Damine and Hallid called is going to start soon." Lolind said running to the mirror and putting gel in his hair. "Yeah hopefully they will tell us were this unexplained wonderful smell of blood is coming from. It’s making me crazy!" Hexina said with an unusual voice.

They hurried to the head vampires lair. They walked in and the meeting had already started. As they settled in Ville noticed a woman across the room. She had dirty blond hair. Her eyes were a deep green. Her skin was toned and tan, but still light enough for her blond hair. She had cherry red lipstick on and heavy black eye make up. Her eyes shined with all the light in the moon. She glanced at Ville as he stared at her. She smiled and looked down shyly. He tuned out of the whole meeting. He got shot into reality when he saw a man came behind this girl and grabbed her hand and take her away. Hexina was glaring at Ville like she was speaking to him saying ‘pay attention.’ He leaned his head back with a playful scared look on his face. She smacked him across the face and pointed up front. "Listen this is important" she whispered to him angrily. People were staring at them, Ville pointed at Hexina blaming it all on her. He started to listen. "This is a huge problem that is an issue to all of us," Damine the head vampire spoke, he was a tall man, he was bold and pale. His eyes were full black. He wore a light black eye liner, as did many male vampires. He has long black leather trench coat just barley above the floor. His voice was low and strong, hard and cold. "They are trying to sweep out or existence, earlier this night they came into one of our most private and well protected clubs. They killed 5 men-5 of our best men. It was a horrible loss to us many of us will mourn on this night,” he said sadly bowing his head. "Also many of you may have sensed and smelt blood in the air. It was because of our sorrowful lost that their blood had lingered in the air. We were saddened when we walked out and smelt it, because then we knew that it was a brutal kill, that they had died in dishonor." he paused and stepped down from the podium. Halide walked up. She was his sister. She didn’t age for how old she was. Her face was soft and warm. If you didn’t know better you would think she was a human. She had light brown hair and light brown eyes. Every thing about her was bright. even her voice seemed like the sweet sound of harps playing in the background. She began to talk, but she paused when she first spoke "Mine and Damine's father, has died. Last night," she lowered her head and held back tears. "she walked down and laid her head on her brother’s shoulder. It was a big loss he was the most loved of vampires. He was kind to all vampires but he hated humans. He was a great fighter too; he didn’t show his age.

The meeting was over. Every one left. As they walked Ville noticed that girl walking. She looked at him and slipped away in to a crowd. "I am going to go home ok guys." Ville said slipping away. "Why, we were going to have a blood kiss?" Lolind begged in asking. "I don’t feel well, I’m going to go. See you guys tomorrow night." he said and slipped away trying to find that mystery girl. He weaves in and out of vampires until he finally saw her dirty blond hair. He ran up and grabbed her arm. "Hey, umm..." he started but did not know what to say. She smiled and then let out a small laugh. She grabbed his arms in return and pulled him along. She didn’t say any thing she just smiled. Ville could smell her sent of vanilla perfume. His eyes were fixed on her. Many vampires were flipping him off because he was running into them and tripping over them. She led him to a dark park that had not been seen for many years. She sat him down and still said nothing. "Why don’t you speak." Ville asked in amazement. She let out a hardy laugh, and she jumped at him and gave him a long romantic kiss. When she let go she bit his lip anda small line of blood filled the spot. She giggled. "Come on I want to show you something." she lead him to a big castle. It was maze of black stone and had demon gargoials the door and windows. Ville's eyes were amazed at what he had seen. "Is this you place." he asked looking up and the painted glass windows. "Hehe yeah it is." she said and opened the door. Inside there was a fountain of red water. The walls were tall, probably at least 15 feet high maybe even more. They were painted a dark shade of maroon that textured with another shade of paint. There were large iron cages along the wall. A black marble fireplace was in the middle of the far wall. On the mantle stood a large mirror. Ville's eyes were even more dazzled by all the furniture and animal skinned rugs and old masterful paintings on the wall. There was not electricity. All the light there was were scented candles of vanilla around the room. She led him to her bedroom. The bedding was lined with black velvet. The walls were dark blood red. She led him to her bed and threw him down. She took off her clothes then slowly took off his. She jumped on him and wrestled him around. Hours went by with endless love and pleasure.

They lay in bed next to each other; Ville was dozing off since they had stopped. She nibbled his ear lobe. He jumped up and yelped. The girl just laughed. "So what is your name anyway?" Ville asked sitting up looking for his clothes. "Its Damilya." she said putting a silk robe on. "Oh that a beautiful name. Mine is-" "Ville, yes I know." she said before he did. "Oh… how did you know?" he asked puzzled. "Oh... well um... I herd someone say your name before," she said unorganized and quickly. "Oh okay." Ville said getting his clothes that she has scattered about. “So, I better go the sun will be coming up in an hour." Ville said dressing and putting a fine line of black eyeliner on. He walked out almost getting lost in the huge castle. He hurried down to his lair. He called Lolind. "Do you who Damilya is?" he asked uncertain. "Yeah haha she the best in the bedroom." he said chuckling. "Wait you had sex with her too?" he said wide-eyed. "Haha yeah she was the special lady I had that one night." he said smiling. "Oh..." Ville said unpleased, his heart sank at the thought. "Hey I got to go, Hexina and I are going for one last blood kiss you want to come? Victoria is too," "No I have to think." Ville said and hung up.

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<3Vam

We are the damned

 She laid there next to him,dead and lifeless."aaww that was tasty,to bad she was beautiful.Its a shame the hot ones taste so ..good."Ville said wiping his mouth."yeah,it was lush."Victoria said smiling and a little bit of her fangs showed."but yet im still earing for more,shall we have another my love?"he ask holding his hand out."of course ,we shall.Should we call Hexina,and Lolind?"she said grabbing his hand."yes,I think there at the club,lets go and get them."they got up and started walking.Victoria put her hood up and.She was a tall woman,with pitch black hair.Her lips were red wine  and her eyes cole black.Her sent was of cinimium.Her skin was pale and cold,but as soft as silk.Her voice was cold and evil.She wore a tight black body suite like how cat woman.She has a thing for cats.Ville had green eyes.His hair was a dark brown.His eyes were dark.He smiled like an angel.He wore a binie all the time and he was pale and soft.His voice was gentle but stern.They walked to the club.People knew that they were evil,they looked evil. so they hid in there homes as they saw them walk buy.They finally got to the club.Ville nocked on the door hard."password."a deep voice said."talisaia."Victoria said softly.It was an old word that no one used it meant "evil among".The man opined the door,he was very large and heavy set.The two walked in,looking around for the other two.They weaved in and out of dancing people.Lights flashing every were."Hexina,Lolind!!"They called out.Finally they spotted Lolind.He wasn't hard to fine.He was a small skinny boy.His hair was silver and shinney.his eyes a light grey blue.Hexina was a strong but thin girl.She had dark red hair and she pale as snow.Her eyes were yellow honey.She was gentle but if you got her mad you better back away.She was always cold so she wares a thin black jacket all the time.

 "we were going to go for a blood kiss,do you want to come?"victoria asked them."yes,im so thirsty."Lolind said in a scratchy sick voice."he didn't eat yesterday."Hexina said shacking her head at him."hey I told you I was bissy,I had a little business with a special lady."he said proudly."well lets go then."Ville said earing them on."ok it wasn't that fun here any ways."Hexina said getting up.They left the club and started looking around for a good kill.Hexina flew up o a high roof top to get a better look.She spotted a group of punk teens.She jumped down at told the rest were to go.Ville hid in a tree,victoria on the roof above the kids,and Hexina and Lolind were blending in with the shadows.victoria jumped down right i the middle of the kids circle."hey baby were did you come from."a kid with a bunch of percings said.Victoria leaned in and whispered in his ear."Im going to give you a kiss...a blood kiss." They didn't know a blood kiss was a bite."ooo cant wait."the punk hissed.Ville jumped out of the tree and smiled.As his fangs showed the boys smile turned into a face of fear.Hexina walked in.Lolind circled around them slowly, staring them in the eyes."are you ready for that kiss?''Victoria hissed.She jumped in and pushed him down.Ville jumped on one of them and Hexina took on two.Lolind took the small one since he was week,he hadn't eaten for awhile.Hexina threw her head back and hammered her fangs in the boys neck.Lolind got up and wiped his mouth."that was good.Young and sweet."  "that was fun,it filled me up too." hexina said after him."did you see his face when Ville smiled.HahahaPricless."Victoria said as she threw the kids lifeless body down."yeah that was a Kodak moment."Ville said smiling."Hey Ville,does Bam know yet?"Lolind ask out of no were."what?Oh no not yet."he said sadly."well isn't he sheepishly,that you don't come out in the day,and you are more dark and you try to hide your mouth?"Hexina said kicking a dead body."I don't know.I just think he will fear me after I tell him."he said frustrated."hhmm.Well we will figure it out sooner or later"Victoria said comforting."Oh did you guys hear,Damine and Hallid are calling a meeting.Tomorrow right after the sun sets."Lolind said breaking silence."no I didn't ,when did they tell?"Ville said narrowing his eyes."um it was posted at the club and at all the other vamp. bars and shit."He said lighting a cigaret."Oh,didn't see them."he said holding his hand out for a cancer stick."lets go,day is almost here."Victoria said putting dark sunglasses on.

hope you like it,haha thnxs to every one who helped me a little but!!

love you guys

Vam

I rode with Ville all the way to the hospital.I was still crying I could not stop.I didn't want him to see me crying though.I hate it when people do.They rushed him to the emergency.They made me wait in the waiting room.Oh no the waiting room horrible memories.As I waited more and more,the more dark I got the more bad thoughts I had.Some how I kept feeling that Ville was dead that he wasnt going to come back.Sooner or later don't really know,every one else came.I herd them talking but I didn't pay attention all that was on my mined was Ville.I didn't care about travis if he got cought by the police or not.I just wanted Ville back in my arms safe and sound.I stared at the ground the hole time.I was afraid if I looked up that every one would see me crying.my tears were cold not warm like usual. don't know why.This wasn't suppose to happen again.I thought every thing was going good ,but instead it got even worse.Hours went by.it seamed exactly like when we were in Rumania.It was so hard,I felt like leaving but I didn't want to be gone when they came out.I think Kayla was talking to me couse she sat next to me and I herd some stuff like"hes ok,don't worry"and yeah.

Finally the doctor came out."he has a blood clog,but we can get that out easy.We found the bullet and he is going to live.He was lucky it just missed an important origin."the doctor said so more things but I didn't hear all i really herd was "he is going to live".A smile of relief came across me.I saw Bam and Jussi jump up and dance around.Kayla and Aishya were crying tears of joy.It seamed like I could breathe easier.We decided to celebrate,we went out to Zamoras.Ville was way out of it and the doctor said we could not see him today since he had to rest for surgery tomorrow to remove the blood clogs.I went out and I felt so alive.We all got drunk and partied all night.I got way drunk.I was giving Kayla piggy backs and we all got on each others shoulders and kept falling over.Every one was staring at us,don't blame them.But if they knew why we were so happy they would understand.That night I slept so sound and sweet.I woke up feeling fresh.Me and Kayla hurried and ate then went to the hospital.They had already got the blood clog out.I sneaked into his room and sat down.He was still sleeping.I sat on his bed and held his hand ever so gently.I stared at him sleeping and all meaning to life seamed to be lost.My eyes glared with lush as my heart beated a song of love.He slowly opened his eyes and softly said,"am I in hell?" haha we laughed."your in the hell on earth and I am the devil on earth,666."Kayla said laughing.Ville sat up and he was smiling."so when do I get out of this hell whole." the nurse walked in and looked at him funny."why are you so happy you just got shot."Bam said walking in with Jussi."couse I got a surprise."ville said smiling bigger."ooohh yeah huh."Bam said smiling too.Us girls were totally confused.Befour we knew it Ville was out of bed and the boys got down on one knee and pulled a small velvet box out of there pocket."Vam","Kayla","Aishya"
the boys said smiling wide."Will you marry us?"

the last one

My heart skiped a beat,and I begain to cry hot tears of joy."YES!!"I yelled and jumped into his arms,and we fell back on top of each other."Kayla and Aishya were in Bam and Jussis arms too,Bam looked over"you realy need to be into the porn biss. and if you do can I be the camera man?"we ingnored him and fell into a deep kiss forgeting the world around us.We were so over joyed I chouldnt sit still.Ville was able to get  out of the hosptiale since he revcovered very fast.We went out and celabrated.We dressed out and went to a nice resterant that was very expensive."this place remindes me when you asked us out."Kayla said looking around."yeah it does"I said and sighed happly.We went to mine and Kaylas and watched movies all through the night.None of us wanted to get up couse we were all in each others arms.We held on tight to each other so close we chould hear each others hearts beating softly.I knew from now on we whould be happy no more drama like we had,every one happy and well.

About a couple months went by and it was the day.We were all geting married on the same day.Instead of a white gown we had a beautiful dark lushes red dress.Red roses pettles scatered every ware.Our hearts were pounding.But we chould not stop smiling.We knew after today nothing whould be the same,every thing whould change for the good.Our minded were racing but we seamed so calm.I felt sad also becouse myfather was not here to give me away.I wanted him to walk me down the isle.Instead I asked Lauri to walk me down,since he was there when I was siting in my room with a knife in my hand holding it to my wriste,and when I was so sad becouse my child hood dog had died.He was there through alot of the hard times.Well yeah anways.my mom came in and took a good look at us,she was kind of disponted we did not do the white dress and all.With brightcolered floures and fabrics.She begane to cry "I cant belive my daughters are all grown and are geting married,"she always called Aishya and Kayla her duaghters.

I herd the music played(we didnt have that wedding music) and I saw Lauri and he held his arm out.Kayla and Aishya were right behinde us.My heart beated faster then it did befor.I never felt so happy.I saw Ville Bam and Jussi and the end of the isle.My eyes grew wide at the sight of them.I was breathing stongly.I looked over at my mom she was crying her eyes out,as was many other women.I looked over at Lauri and I sware I saw a tear .He looked over and smiled at me.It was the end of the line and I gave Lauri a kiss and Kayla Aishhya andI went on Ville Bam and Jussis arm,We said our vouls and all that stuff thats in weddings."I do" us girls said at the same time"bla bla bla(what the pretste person says)"the preist satded."I do."the boys said smiling wide."I now pronounce you husbands and wifes,you may kiss the brides" and we all leaned in and went into a deep kiss that latsed for hhmm bout 40 seconds.We finaly let go and ran of to our limos so we chould go to the reseption.We had a blast we played games and drank a tun and jumpted onto the pool they had there.Me and Ville chould not stop staring at each other.I dont think one time we did not smile.We held hands non stop.Kayla and Bam too,also Aishya and Jussi.This was the best night of my life.The party ended and we left for our honey moon.

We went to the bahamas.We had a night to remember our first night there.Lush and pleasure all night.Every night non stop pleasure.We went back home after about a week.We all got out own houses and still we had a keyto every ones home.we still watched movie together and went to Zamroas and got drunk.We hanged with eachother and messed around.Our friendships never changed.It was all like befor just we were married.

We were married about a month and we were over at Bams and Kaylas house.Me and Ville weer on the ground laying on top of each other.We stared into each others eyes."any one want a beer?"Bam said geting up."yeah."we all said."I will get popcorn Ville saud and he got up.We herd them talking in there and mummbling but we chould not tell what they were saying.Bam came back in the room and was looking at me,I glared at him and he just smiled.Ville came in and layed on top of me.We fell asleep over there and Ville was still on me when I woke up.I slipted out from under him and I started Breakfast(we treated each others house like it was our own and knew it like our own).Bam woke up next(surprisingly) it was 6 am and I knew Ville whould not get up soon or Aishya.Well eather whould Jussi Kayla might though."Whoa,Ville sure loves you." he said siting down."yeah I know."I said smiling."like I said befor,HE REALY LOVES YOU."He said a little lowder."what are you doing,trying to wake them up?"I said,I get grumpy in the mornings."vam,he loves you more than anything,last night when we were geting drinks,he was love struck and he was so kyper he was talking about you non stop he would not shut up."he said grabing my shoulders."he...was?"  "yeah he was." Bam said as Kayla walked in.After a few minuts Ville walked in.I gvae him a long kiss I felt so in love right then."whoa hehe what did you put in your coffee?"he said smiling."nothing."I said and smiled.We all got dresses and ate then we went out.It felt like old times.Like just a couple months ago when we first rely tol each other we were in love.Just like the tiome they asked us out.Like the good times in Romania.Like the times we watched movies all night and when me and Bam ahd those pranck wars.When we all were there for each other no matter what happened.Every thing was perfect.I was so in love with Ville,we were all even better friends,we all were happy and it seamed like we chould do any thing.We were so,so happy.And we all lived Happly Ever After.

  THE END

 We all went home later that night.I went to bed early I did not feel to well.I almost fell asleep when my phone rang."hello?"I answered.No one spoke all I herd was some one hang up.I fell asleep when the phone rang again.This time there was breathing."who the hell is this?"I yelled then they hanged up.The phone rang again,"what the fuck do you want?"I screamed."I want you,why did you leave me?Why,why?What did I do besides love you?I want you Vam I need you."it was Travis."Travis ,what are you doing?"I sighed."tomorrow I will see you,don't you think you can get away from me this time."and he hanged up.I ran into the kitchen were Kayla was."KAYLA!!TRAVIS KEEPS CALLING ME.my eyes were wide and frightened."WHAT??!!! Ok we need to call Ville,what did he say."she said grabbing the phone.":he said like,why did i leave him and he said that  tomorrow he will come or something."I said pancaked.After she called Ville he came running over."Hun,what did he say about tomorrow."he said putting his arm around me."he said he is coming to get me and i cant get away this time or something like that..."I said looking scared."ok ,I am not going to leave you alone.Im spending the night kayla ok.Tomorrow you are going to be surrounded by us."he said giving me a hug."Im not going to let you get hurt by that maniac,now lets get some sleep."he said and pulled me up and we went in the room.Kayla stayed up all right watching TV and all this stuff on the computer.

 ***I was running in the woods,ruining for dear life.I looked behind me and he was still there with an long shot gun in his hand.I tripped over a route sticking out of the ground.I laded there on the ground,and he stepped over me."i told you,you can run but you cant hide"he said shaking his head,his voice was so bitter and hard,deep and evil.He cocked his gun and shoved it into my mouth,he pulled it out ."aw,I aint going to kill ya like that,hun."he said then turned away.I felt relived,but suddenly he turned back and shot me!!***I woke up all damp I was sweating like a pig."You ok darling?"Ville said lifting his head."yeah ,just had that dream again.What time is it?"I said as my eyes still glazed with fright."its 4 am."he said looking at the clock.I laid my head back down on Villes chest.I herd his heart pounding fast."hun,did you have a dream?"I asked him."yeah,I did."he said closing his eyes."what was it?"I asked"um...well.I cant rember."he was a liar he did."Liar."I whispered in his ear."well i dreamed that well....I got shot and I went back to a hospital."his heart beated louder and faster.We both fell back asleep.I woke up and Ville was still asleep.I slipped out of his arms and took a shower.While I was in the shower he came in."I told you I wasn't going to leave you."he said and sat down."I smiled as I peeked out of the curtain.I got out and Villes mouth droped.his eyes shined and moved like snaked across my body.I raised my eye brows at him."hehe brings back sweet memories."he said tuning out.I rolled my eyes at him.I got dressed and all.I went out and every one was there already.They all new bout Travis cuz kayla already told them.We diced to stay over at our house today.

 We were going to make cookies but we had no eggs or much sugar.But the boys wined and begged and Ville and Bam had a big fuss over it so Kayla went out to go get some at the store.We waited for awhile and Bam was getting very eager so he called Kayla up"were are you babe?"he wined."I had to stop off at my work cuz I forgot to say I wasn't coming in today."she said driving along."OOOHHH,hurry please.!"Bam pleaded "Ok man,bye love ya."they said and hanged up.We waited for along time for Kayla to come back,FINALY we herd her nock.I guess she got a lttile more than eggs and sugar.I ran and opens the door....but it wasn't Kayla.Standing in the doorway was Travis."What are you doing here?"I demanded."I came to take you.From your chains that man has you in."he said smirking."WHAT I am never going with you."i yelled.Every one herd us so they came ruining in.Right when Ville saw him he paused.His eyes glared with hate at the evil in the doorway.I looked back at Ville.My heart was torn."so this is the man you so call...love."he said evilly and sarcastically."Vam,come with me now."he demanded."NO!!!Never will I go into to your arms again."I screamed."you said you loved me once,why not now?"   "that was a long time ago I despise you now."I said shaking my head."fine if that's how you will be I can compromise."he said turning his back.He turned around and a gun was pointing towards us."come with me or I will shoot him."he said slowly earing the gun to Ville."Wait!!"I yelled.My heat was racing I panicked,I didn't know what to do.I froze I tried to speak but my voice muted."COME NOW!!!" he yelled."I...I.."I began.I started towards travis when...he squeezed the trigger and--shot...Ville."NO!!!!!!"I yelled and ran to his side."Bam call the police,call the hospitable,"I yelled,Bam froze his legs stiffened as his heart raced."BAM,NOW!!!!"I yelled."Vam..."Ville said softly."sshh,don't speaks you are going to be ok,darling"I paused and my voice shacked."your going to be ok."I said beginning to cry as my heart fell.By then Jussi had Travis pinned down.Kayla walked up not knowing what had happed,she walked in the door and screamed.aAs I looked at Ville laying there on the ground my eyes were full of freezing tears.As I watched the light leave him I shredded tears for sorrow.The abulence finally came.The rushed him out to the hospitable.NO why did this happen again why did it have to happen to him?My love.Why does it always happen to me?! NO I CANT DO THIS AGAIN!!!! WHY ME,WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS SORROW??!!!! This was to unbearable.But i could not leave Ville.This is when he needs me most.But its so hard for me to do that.?If Ville dies what's the point of me living??What's the point of going on??WHY?

ok this one was realy hard,hope you liked it

onley two more left after this one!!!Then my new one will be out its called We Are The Damned!!

luv you guys<3Vam